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April

So, I didn't get to say April Fool Day yesterday. Big deal. OK, I should have posted as it was the first of a new month, but . . . shit happens. Was a regular day and I actually forgot it was April Fool Day! Can't remember when that happen last. And no one played an April Fool joke on me!

I played tennis with Ted yesterday again. We tried at 6 to 6 so that made him happy. I'm getting close to beating him on a regular basics. Still he's a very controlled player and it's not easy to beat him. If he had a serve worth a shit, I would be in deep trouble.

When to the gym yesterday afternoon. I like to use to Jacuzzi as it helps my knees. But it wasn't in the Jacuzzi that I had fun. It was in the sauna. I got to see some new old men naked! One was an old man with a busy head of salt and pepper hair. He was pale white and had a thick headed cut dick. And there was another old chubby solid white haired man with a three day beard undressing. He had big balls and almost not dick. Still, I would have loved to kiss his nice balls. Then inside the sauna was the old fart that almost scraped the barcode off my window when I parked in his favorite guest parking space. He had a towel wrapped around his waist but I managed to see his dick. He's tall and skinny and a six inch soft cut dick. Would love to see it hard. But I think he saw me looking at his dick as he covered it up as we chatted and I didn't get another look at it.

But a beautiful slightly chubby old man with a handsome face and a huge set of balls and again almost no dick came into the sauna. God, was he to die for! He set on the top bench next to the tall skinny old man. And when he set down you could only see his big balls atop the bench. They were so large that they hid his little cut dick completely. And as I was trying to get a good look at his balls the skinny old man glanced at me and must have realized that I was trying to look around him. He glanced at the chubby old man above him to see what I was looking at. Well his eyes were on the same level as the chubby old man's huge balls. So, he must have realized that's what I was eyeing. He sort of moved to the left as though to give me a better view. And I know that chubby old man knew I was starting at his balls as the three of us chatted. Damn, it was fun.

Today I'm going to the Alibi for lunch. Meeting a friend there. That will make twice this week that I've been to the Alibi for lunch! Well the food is so, so but the view is wonderful. Just wish I could see some of them naked! Would love to have Superman x-ray vision!!

I'm not playing tennis with Ted this morning. But I will go out and practice this morning. I should be resting my knees, but if I am going to continue to improve I do have to take ever opportunity to practice. I just hope my knees hold out. Damn, it's bad when you start reaching the age where your body just will not work like it use to.

Sunday 04/04/04 1:58 PM

Got a hangover this morning! Was going to do my posting last night after our building's BBQ at the main pool, but got a little bit drunk sipping on the red wine that Dieter and I took for our table. My head feels like I drank most of the two bottles of red wine but knowing Dieter's love for the fermented juice of the grape, it's a good bet he downed more than me. But he's a big drinker and I'm not. Therefore, I'm the one with the throbbing head. I do remember an old woman sitting at the table next to us saying "Your table is too noisy" But I don't think her comment quieted down our table at all. I did hear retorts of "turn you hearing aid down!"

Yes, I had a good time. Our building is wonderful. Counting me and Dieter, there were four gays at our table with the rest single women (except for Bernie). They all had a great time too, at least they were making almost as much noise as I was. (Guess I was the ring leader)

So, I didn't see any old dick but of course I did see some nice old men. There was one that it to die for and he was hanging around our table. Actually Ted introduced him to me the other day when we were coming back from playing tennis and the handsome old man as he was parking his golf cart. He is tall and skinny and handsome as the devil. Ted said he's always friendly to him. I told Ted I would wack him with my tennis racket if he made the old man! I want him first! But he's married so I don't think either of you have much of a chance. Anyway he was standing behind our table most of the evening and I spend a great deal of time looking into his beautiful eyes.

I'm a little disappointed that I haven't really made contact with some old men who like to play around here at the complex. Anyway, that might chance quickly as I have opened a website for gays at our complex. Just hope that I get some response from the website.

Well, let me nurse my throbbing head back to health on this beautiful warm, sunny Sunday.

Monday 04/05/04 8:40PM

Another day in paradise. To bad I'm almost too depressed to enjoy it. Managed to play tennis with Ted. Got beat badly in the first set and then started off great before finally losing in the second set. I'm beginning to see that if I am going to beat Ted, I have to play smarter than what I'm doing. It's not enough just to hit the ball harder and serve better, he's too good at returning shots and serves. OK, know what I've got to do.

Went to the gym this afternoon. Managed to see the tall slim bald old man that looks like he once was very heavy but has lost lots of weight. He has a long thick dick, it must be at least six inches long even when it's soft. Would love to see him with a roaring hard on, but that's not likely to happen.

I think I'm still suffering from drinking too much wine Saturday night. I think I'm allergic to alcohol. It only take a couple of drinks for me to have a hangover. But when I drinking I can just drink and drink. It the next day that I pay the price and damn it a big price to pay for such a short time of fun.

Dieter goes back to the cancer doctor on Wednesday. Don't expect him to say anything except keep taking your pills! We don't see any change in the spots of cancer, but as long as new ones hasn't developed then I guess we can't complain. What I do worry about it what might be happening that we can't see. Hopefully, nothings.

I guess his doctor visit might be one of the reasons for my depression. Maybe the other is my aching knees. They are really bothering me. I'm like an old man getting out of a chair. Yet when I'm playing tennis I run like the devil after balls. Again, the same old thing, having to pay a price later for a little fun. Maybe I'm like a pit bull dog and don't know when to stop.

Ted has a guest coming up from Key West for the weekend. Ted said he's 73yo and that I'll like him. Well, I'll see for myself. Don't know that Ted knows exactly what kind of senior I'm interested in as we really don't talk about such things. We play tennis and that's about it. To get into a discussion with Ted is to have everything you say contradicted or explained away as not important. So, I found it best to play tennis, keep my mouth shout, and not to show any emotion when I win or lose. Strange how you have to learn how to handle people to keep them from getting upset. Guess that's what they call social skills.

Well, what social skills I show in person I am usually totally lacking when dealing with people over the internet. God, people that think they are important really get me angry. Guess, I should take an anger management course. But, I'm a real person and not a made up internet persona. Make me made and I'll say "fuck you" quicker than you can type your name! I do try to help people that need help, but people that think they are owed special privileges . . . hell, let's just not go there!

As always I feel a little better after writing in my journal. It's nice to download my thoughts and angry feeling and sometime sadness on these pages. It like afterward, I can sort of start all over again.

Tuesday 8:11AM 04/07/04

Gee, what a different the start of a new day brings. There's hope and anticipation of excitement and a sense that you're starting out fresh. Sure, things might be different at the end of the day when hope had turned to disappointment and excitement just never came visiting. But, now as the first golden light hit the pool and reflects off the next building all is bright and cheerful.

Will I beat Ted in tennis? Well, I am going to play a little different today. I've been returning the ball to him and hitting the high percentage shot. Now, I'm going to go for a kill shot every time. OK, so I probably make a lot of errors but at least I'll run him around the court and make him sweat a little.

Sometimes it seems like it me against the world. I came across a website last night while surfing the net. It listed the top 100 senior xxx-rate web sites. Mine wasn't anywhere to be found. I mean, I wasn't even listed as 99th. Funny how the network of senior websites try to play like I don't exist. Jesus Christ! I must have pissed a lot of people off! Oh well, so what. If its me against the web so be it cause I guess I'm not going to stop pissing people off. And they all think they get so many hits. I got a note from older4me asking me to sell my videos on there website. They touted that they get 5 Millions hits a month. Great, so do I. I guess my exclusion from the fraternity of senior XXX-rated web sites isn't really hurting me.

Yesterday at the guy I saw the old man with the huge dickhead that puts the towel over his head when he's in the sauna. But I only saw him in the dressing room. I didn't see him naked. I will have to go to the gym later in the day . . . around 4:00PM to see him in the sauna. I'm going to try to get there around that time today. Love looking at his thick mushroom dick head. Would love to see it today.

Wednesday 8:29AM

Well, I did do better in tennis yesterday. Almost won the first set and tied the second set. I really made Ted run all over the court and will do it again today. Was good to see him missing shots on the run. I'll have to keep up the run and gun offense.

Made it to the gym again yesterday, but will not go today as Dieter has to go to the cancer doctor this afternoon. I saw this one old man that was gorgeous. He looked about 65 and as stout (but not chubby) with wide shoulders and huge chest. He had a big set of low hanging balls. But most of all I love his gray haired chest and his beautiful blue eyes. I only got passing views of him as he came and went from the shower area. I would have loved to have set in the sauna with him and stared directly at his huge balls.

Like, I said, got to go to doctor with Dieter this afternoon. Don't expect the doctor to say anything important as he hasn't so far. He'll just give Dieter another prescription for the cancer drug and off we'll go. "Take your pills and come back next month.

God, I've got to get back into writing. Maybe later to day I'll start on another story. Been a long dry time, but have gone through these many times before. Just a matter of getting back in the mood and focusing on writing.

Like I said before, I've got some ads out for meeting gays in our complex. So far no one has answered the ad but I'm sure that sooner or later someone will. Anyway people that see the ad will at least know that there are gays here in our huge complex. Maybe if nothing else it will encourage more gays to buy here in your complex.

Ok, got to get breakfast and get ready to run and gun against Ted.

Thursday 3:20PM 04/08/04

Ted's funny. My new run and gun strategy gave him fits yesterday. But he managed to win the first set 6 to 4. But in the second set I was ahead 5 game to 1 and he said. "That's enough. Let's stop." I didn't say anything. But inside I was nodding my head and saying "yea you just don't want to loose 6 to 1." This illustrates the different in us. I would have played out the set and gracefully lost 6 to 1. But dear old Ted just couldn't see himself getting that badly beaten. That's the way life is.

Did get to the gym this morning (didn't play tennis with Ted) and got to watch a chubby old man with a big cut dick and huge balls undress while I was watching though the glass door of the sauna. The old man looked around 80yo and had a really thick big old dick. I just sat there getting a hard on as I watched him slowly getting dressed. Was a really great sight. He was hairy and had a nice face. I certainly would have jumped at the chance of getting in bed with him.

The visit to Dieter's cancer doctor when well. The doc said that the cancer wasn't spreading and was stable. After my question he said that this was common. That the medication seemed to be helping in the short term. I had read that cancer medications often slows down the growth of tumors when first taken. Of course the question will be how long will it have a positive effect? The doctor said that if the cancer became more aggressive or new spots occurred that he would try other medications. On the surface it sounds good, but having done a lot of research on melanoma I understand that just because a medication gets a response doesn't necessary result in prolonging the patient's life. So, time will tell. I'm just glad that Dieter's it feeling great. We are enjoying our days as they come.

Tonight we are having dinner with Ted. He's got a guest up from Key West. I forgot what Ted said his friend's name is but I do remember that he said he was 73yo. It would be nice if he was my type. Ted has said that I will like him, but don't know if Ted has a clear idea of what type of older man I like. Guess I see tonight.

Ted bought me tickets to the Davis Cup Tennis match in Boca over my protest. So will have to go with him and his friend to Boca for the match. I'll probably enjoy it. Still, I had told him that I really wasn't interested in going. He bought me a ticket anyway. I'll let it ride this time . . . but with me . . . No means No.

Sunday 04/11/04

Ted's guest from Key West arrived and Ted invited Dieter and me up to his apartment for dinner Thursday night. Ted doesn't cook. He bought a roasted chicken and come potato salad from Whole Foods and made a tomato salad. It was good. His friend Jim is 72yo and skinny and sort of swishy. Not my type. But Dieter and I enjoyed talking to him about Key West. We had thought of driving down with Ted in June, but I don't think we are going to go. Instead we will probably go to Alabama to visit my family. As we chatted before dinner, I could tell that Jim was interested in me. But I didn't acknowledge his attention.

Then on Friday me, Ted and Jim went to Boca for the Davis Cup match. I hated it! We were way up high in bleacher seats ($35) and it was damn hot. I hadn't wanted to go but since Ted had bought me a ticket I couldn't refuse. But I think it will be my one and only time going to a tennis match, especially since the urinals have partitions between them. They aren't like those at the local baseball stadium where your ass is almost touching the guy's next to you while you take a piss and are able to see the guys' dicks on both side of you. And then it was so fucking hot! I was sweating as thought I was down on the court playing. But lucky for me, it started to rain. First they had a rain delay after a little shower and then about thirty minutes later it poured and Ted said let go home. Thank God!

Ted's guest left on Saturday morning heading back up north (Washington DC) for the summer. And then Ted left this morning for Virginia to help his mother move to her new condo. He might be gone until the middle of May. So until then I'm without a tennis partner unless I can find one of the old men to play with me. Well, I'm certainly going to try to attraction the attention one of them. Who knows might just meet someone great, but I sort of doubt it.

I practiced Saturday and this morning alone trying to hit the ball like the guys I saw a the Davis Cup match. Not easy to hit the ball hard and still keep it inbounds. But, I'm enjoying trying. Also I've been working on my serve. I do hope that when Ted comes back I'll be a much improved player. But, hey I just might not have to talent to play tennis well. Time will tell.

Tomorrow Dieter's x-lover Sinan and his friend Joe (78yo) are flying in for a week or so. Therefore, I had to clean the apartment this afternoon. Finished and it's in good shape . . . at least as good as I'm going to get it. I really don't mind Sinan and Joe. They entertain themselves and can drive my car (manual transmission) so we don't have to drive them around. Anyway they are stay at home people like us. I guess, they will want to go to the beach but if so they can take my car. Dieter's can't get in the sun and I don't care much for going to the beach anymore.

Am having lunch with Erwin and Sal and another friend of mine on Thursday at Tropics. My friend has seen pictures of Erwin and likes him, so I'll introduce him to them. If they hit it off . . . great. If not . . . well I tried.

I put all my fiction under password protection today. It took me most of the morning. Seems that the fucking China website that hacks into everyone's websites was posting links to my fiction on their website. So now except for the sample stories all of my fiction is password protected.

I'm going to write some new stories this week. Yes, I'm finally in the writing mood again. Knew it would come back to me sooner or later. I have gone through these dry spells before. When it happens, I don't try to force myself to write. I just wait it out. And then the stories start flowing again.

I'm sure that I'll go to the gym this week often as Sinan will want to go. So, I do hope to see some naked old men. Maybe even some new ones.  Oh, by the way, the restroom at Coral Ridge Mal is still under construction. Damn, how long do it take to remodel a bathroom!

Well, since Easter is over (or will be after today) things will quiet down here as the snow birds head home. Great! Now the traffic will be sensible. Myself, I love the summer here in South Florida. There are fewer people. You can get to the beach and the surf temperature climbs into the 80's. Can't stand the cold water during the winter (74F to 77F). I love the lukewarm temperature of the water in the summer.

OK, that's about it for tonight.

Monday 9:29PM 04/12/94

Dieter and I picked up Sinan   and Joe

  at the airport and then we all went to Hamburger Mary's for lunch. Sinan is original from Turkey and Joe is an Italian from Brooklyn (they live in Brooklyn). Sinan was Dieter's lover when he first came over from Germany. He meet Sinan in New York City and they were together for about 10 years until Dieter went to Japan and met Yoshi. So that the history of Sinan. He and Joe have been together for about 18 years. They are both very nice and welcome guest at our home anytime.

Tomorrow Dieter will take them to the swap shop on 441 to buy fruits.

I don't know if I'll practice tennis or go with them. I will take them to the gym later and hopefully will see some naked old men! Keep your fingers crossed that I seen some new ones. Dieter is looking great as you can see. I cut his hair a little too short. Oh, well, it will grow out. Now that Sinan is here he has someone to go to the museums with. They are at the dinning room table discussing which museum too visit first.

A couple of weeks ago a polish friend of Dieter visited us. I don't think I posted his picture. Carl a very nice man who just turned 65. His friend Fred (I didn't take a picture of him) is 84yo and they live in New York City. 

Carl is super at one of the fancy upper East Side buildings in Manhattan. He's a great cook and is very funny as he's always telling jokes.

So, Sinan and Joe are visiting for about 12 days.

I've had a couple answers from the ad I'm running in Hot Spots Magazine in which I'm looking for seniors to be in my next video. I suppose to meet a couple of them on Thursday. One is 60yo and the other one 63yo. Hopefully they will have the looks that I need for my video. The one that is 60 says he a top and has an eight inch cut cock. OK, well see if that's true or not. I could certainly use a top with a long dick! Just he doesn't look too young? The one that is 63 is a bottom. Would be great if have the fatherly looks that I need. But, I'm not going to hold my breath. Anyway, at least I'm looking for people for the next video.

Sinan and Joe just came to the porch to say good night. So, I guess I better hit the sack as well.

But, I looking forward to meeting the two seniors on Thursday. I'm rather excited about getting new people for a video! Will cross my own fingers and hope for the best.

Wednesday 8:41PM 04/14/04

Didn't do shit Tuesday. Did manage to practice tennis in the morning but the rest of the day I was busy burning DVD's.

Today Dieter took Sinan and Joe to some museums. I stayed at home and when to the gym. Saw a new old man. He looked about 80yo. He was bald and with a normal build not to heavy and not to skinny. He had some nice big tight fitting balls and a beautiful cut dick head. I made sure he saw my dick as I stood up in the sauna and looked at him while he was getting dressed.

Then Joe (the old man that cames into the sauna first with his bathing suit and then naked) came in the sauna. God, I loved sitting there looking at his big low hanging balls and thick dick head. He chatted with me as I eyed his crotch fantasizing about how nice it would be to suck him off. I'm sure that it's not going to ever happen, but I have learned to never say never. Sometimes miracles do happen.

Tomorrow, I am going to the Alibi for lunch with Sal and Erwin and another friend. That should be fun. I just hope that Sal and Erwin show up!!!

After that I meet two guys at Storks for coffee that want to be in a video. I meet one at 3:00PM and the other one at 3:30. I do hope at least one of them looks good enough to be in a video. I'll let you all know.

Dieter finished his Chemo pills today. He will not have to take them again until next month. So far he's hasn't had any side affects from the cancer medication. He's feeling great. That nice. He really having fun visiting with Sinan and Joe. They want us to visit them in New York City. But I really don't want to go. I enjoy my routine here in the complex and don't want to take a trip to the Big Apple. I had rather go to Alabama and visit my sister and her kids.

I think we will all go out to morrow night for dinner. I think to Acapulco Lindo on Wilton Drive. It's a great Mexican restaurant and very inexpensive. Lots of gays go there. And it's within walking distance to Chardee's.

I don't know if we will go to any bars. Joe doesn't like to go to bars so we probably will not. Still, it's possible that we could stop in at Tropics for a drink

Ok, I working on a story. So, I better same some time for it.

Thursday 9:10PM 04/16/04

Didn't get to the gym this morning. Went with Dieter, Sinan and Joe shopping. Damn, I hate shopping but since I had to visit the PO Box I went along. Also wanted to buy a book on tennis. I bought two books! We didn't get home until almost two in the afternoon. And then I took my tennis books to the courts and practice what the pictures showed. Well, wish I could report great success but that's not the case. I have developed a way of hitting the ball already and it hard to switch. I think I'm hitting a sort of slice ground stroke. Any way it barely goes over the net and has lots of velocity. So, I'm going to stick with that swing for the moment.

Joe cooked dinner tonight. Made a Greek casserole. It was great. It had ground beef, noodles, allspice, cinnamon and nutmeg along with a white sauce and cheese. It really turned out tasty. Joe's a very good cook.

Damn, I really don't have anything exciting to write about. My life is getting dull. Haven't seen any naked men in a couple of days. I did get an e-mail from a 21 year old guy and his 74yo lover asking if I wanted to join them in a three some. Well, I just might do it. Never been with someone 21 and don't know if I can. But at least I might watch them having sex. Hell, I'm so horny at this point in time that most anything will do!

Funny how we all say "I only like men 50+ or 60+ or 70+" but when we really get horny we sometime lower our standards. Ever been to a video store and someone stuck their dick through the hole and you knew it was a young guy, but the damn dick was so great looking that you couldn't stop yourself from sucking on it a little while? Well, I been there and done that.

Well, the meetings I had with the two guys that wanted to be in my next video didn't go so well. The one I was suppose to meet at 3:00PM at Storks cancelled. And the one that showed up I already have pictures of on the website. Oh, well, maybe next week some one ones will call. At least I'm trying.

Have my new story about half written. Hope to have it posted by Sunday. As usual, I don't know if anyone else will like it but I'm enjoying writing it. At least I'm back writing.

God, I'm tried from practicing tennis. I always over do it. I hit so many balls that I thought my arm was going to drop off. Haven't met an old man to practice with. But I haven't given up.

Ok, can't think of another damn word to write.

Sunday 8:27 PM 04/18/04

Can't believe it been Thursday since I wrote in my journal last time. Shit! What happen to Friday and Saturday. Well not a whole lot. Friday, zip happened. OK so I practiced tennis, big deal. Saturday we all went shopping and I bought two books on tennis. Well, reading the books and looking at the pictures sure screwed up my ground strokes as I tried to hit the ball "the right way". Got so disgusted that I took today off from practice. Went to the gym (while Dieter took Sinan and Joe shopping)

My reward was seeing a nice old, more slim than chubby, man with a thick mop or white hair. He had a beautiful cut dick, not too thin and not to thick . . . just right for sucking and a set of medium sized low hanging balls. Yes, spending some time with my head between his legs would be some treat.

Saturday we all went to Tropics and then ate at the Tai restaurant next door. It is great! Sinan and Joe eats at all the best restaurants in New York City and they raved about the food! So, we all have a good time at Tropics and a great meal next door.

Today, I finished the story for the website. http://enjoyoldpics.com/mag/main/mywife.htm I really got horny writing the story! Will probably have sex with Dieter tonight as I'm still hot from writing the story. Yes, now I'm back into the mood of writing. Will do another story this week, hell maybe more than one. Feels good to be back in the writing mode. Just hope it last a long time.

Dieter is taking Sinan and Joe to Miami on Tuesday. I'm thinking about inviting Al over for sex while they are away. I'm so hot for his big dick. I think he's a real nice person. Actually I'm having him over for dinner on Wednesday night. Would be nice to have sex with him a day before. But, I don't know. I probably will talk myself out of inviting him for sex. Anyway I can enjoy think about the possibility until I make up my mind one way or another.

With company here, I'm out of my routine a little. Don't make it to the gym as often as I would like. And I've been rather late getting to the tennis courts. All the old men and women are gone by 10:00 PM. I'll have to start getting there earlier if I really want to make contact with some of the old men. If I had more confidence in my ability I would probably be more aggressive. But I don't want to start playing with some nice old man and make a fool of myself.

OK, I'll try to get back to writing every day in the journal. Don't know why I've been neglecting the chore. Just lazy, I guess.

Monday 9:20 04/19/04

I'm tried. Don't know why. I haven't done anything except practice tennis this morning. Well, I did work my ass off hitting balls for two hours. Felt like I improved just a bit. Still I've got a long way to go before Ted gets back. Funny, with all my practicing he'll probably be the hell out of me the first time we play.

Wanted to go to the gym this afternoon, but just couldn't drag my lazy ass over there. OK, so I did have tons of DVD's to burn and that take lots of time. In fact, I'm using the other computer to burn DVD's even as I type in the journal. Got to get them mailed out tomorrow.

I decided against inviting Al over for sex tomorrow while Dieter and Sinan and Joe are down in Miami. Know he's as hot to have sex with me as I am to have sex with him, but . . .? I guess his and my time will come if it's meant to happen. Will be nice having Al over for dinner on Wednesday night. I do enjoy being around him. He so straight acting. And that big cut dick of his is a sight to see.

Sinan and Joe leave on Saturday. The place will feel empty when they are gone. Still, I do enjoy just Dieter and me in the condo. I like my routine. So one day merges with the next. I don't mind that. Didn't think I would ever enjoy such a simple life. Funny how we change as we get older.

Now five years ago, I would have made an appointment with Al in a moment! But now it's different. As long as Dieter is fairly healthy, I'm not going to get seriously involved with anyone. But, if he because very ill, then I would look for some support. And the first person I would turn to is Al. I'm not saying that it would work between us. But it certainly would be worth a try. He a very nice man. I guess the main sticking point would be that he has grown children and grandchildren in the area which don't know that he's gay. Don't know how I would deal with that. He's also Jewish, but that really doesn't matter. Oh, well, I probably never even get a chance to find out if he and I would make a good couple. And I hope that I don't find out.

Tomorrow I will go to the gym in the morning and later go to Fort Lauderdale to mail the DVD and check my PO Box. Man, they are taking a long time to renovate the restrooms at the Coral Ridge Mall. It's been a month and it looks like there not even close to being finished. Wish the fuck they would put a rush on it. Of course, I bet you dollars to donuts that the new restroom will not be gay friendly!

Sinan and Joe just got back. Then went to Joe's cousin's in Pompano for dinner. So, I guess, I better go chat with them a bit before we all go to bed.

Tuesday 8:39PM 04/20/04

Dieter took Sinan and Joe to the Fairfield Gardens in Coral Gables today and they all enjoyed the 80 acres of gardens. I'm just not much into sightseeing. Anyway I had to go to Fort Lauderdale to mail a box of DVD's and pick up new order. But before I left, I went to the gym. A nice bald old man about 80yo was in the sauna when I arrived. But he set there with his legs crossed so I couldn't see his dick. I could see a hint of his low hanging balls below his crossed legs. But, when he finally got up to leave, I got a good look at him. His balls were very lowing hanging, with his left balls hanging much lower than his right ball. His dick was about three inches long soft with a big cut dick head that was rather pointed. It looked beautiful.

The old man went to take a shower and when he returned I was still sitting in the sauna and I watched him as he dried himself off. He dick was now about four inches long and I got a close look at it as he was standing briefly in front of the glass door to the sauna. While he was in front of the door drying off, I stood up in front of the glass door. My dick was semi-hard and I pretended to sort of rub my head with my towel as I stared at his dick. The old man knew I was eyeing his dick. And he couldn't help seeing my long thick dick as I stood in front of the door. Damn, it was fun to stare at the old man knowing that he knew exactly what I was doing. I just wonder if he can get a hard on? Not that it matters, I love sucking on a nice soft dick also.

So, I had my little fun today. I didn't go practice tennis. I'm giving it a couple of days rest. I did stop at Fern Park on my way to Fort Lauderdale, but there wasn't any one interesting there.

I had to stop at Pubix (grocery story) on my way home. An old man was just finishing taking a piss as went into the restroom at Pubix. He washed his hands and as he was drying then I turn to the side as I pissed so that he could see my dick. He made some remark that I think was "I don't want to see it." I enjoyed that. Love it when I can flash a straight old man.

Gee, it doesn't take much to make me happy!

Tomorrow I'm having Al and George over for dinner. I always get nervous about doing dinner parties. Almost all the time they turn out great, but I still get nervous. I'm doing individual chicken pot pies (from scratch) and making a Key Lime pie. I hope everything turns out good. I never know about my dishes, as I cock from memory. I hate following directions. So my dishes never taste exactly the same. Oh, well, let's see what happens.

Damn, I'm tried and I haven't don't jack shit today. I didn't even practice tennis. Guess it age creeping up on me. God, in a couple of years I be 60! Damn how time flies!

Thursday 9:53PM 04/22/04

Well the dinner party turned out OK. It was nice to see George again. He's always delightful. It was also nice to see Al. I was a little shock the he hadn't shaved. Said he was working all day. That's fine. I do like him. I guess that he and George had seen one another in Tropics so they knew each other by sight.

After the dinner part, when I was walking Al to his SUV, he said I should call him some times and come over for a chat . . . of course meaning sex. Well if the opportunity presents itself I just might do that. Would be great to spend an hour or so kissing him and sucking his big dick. We'll see what happens.

I only drank three glass of wine last night, but still I had a hint of a hangover this morning. So I didn't go to the gym or even practice tennis. What I did was burn DVD (Friday is one of my mailing day) and worked putting buttons on the website so that people can buy videos or subscribe using their credit cards. I'm using a company like PayPay called Ikobo. Like PayPal it doesn't cost customers anything to use it. (It cost me but not the buyer or subscriber). So, hopefully at last I have a way for people to use there credit cards on the website.

Tomorrow, I going to try to get to the gym in the afternoon. But since I have to go to Fort Lauderdale to mail DVDs and pick up new order, don't know if I'll make it to the gym.

God, last night I had some terrible dreams. Of course they were about Frank (my first lover that died in 1984 of a heart attach after we had been together for 14years). I had several about him. But in the worst one he was married and I was trying to get back together with him. (Always in these dreams I can't believe that I have left him and feel so guilty) But in the end, even after we had fantastic sex, he picked his wife over me. (Frank had been married before he met me).

Damn these dreams leaves me feeling that my life has been a waste without him. Yes, I have Dieter and I love him very much, but no one could possibly know how much I loved Frank! I guess to the day I die, his death will haunt me and leave me feeling a great sense of loss. First love! There's nothing like it. Nor can it ever be replaced.

Friday 8:24 04/23/04

I struck it rich at Fern Park this morning! It seems like when you least expect it you stumble onto good situations. Well, I stumbled on a great one this morning. I really didn't expect to find anyone interesting parked in the park but when I saw an old man with a mop of white hair in an old beat up white van, I put on my breaks. Then back up. The old man sitting in the driver side of the van turned and smiled. God! He was straight out of a wet dream. I guess he was around 70yo. His face was deeply tanned and weather as he stared out the window at me and I returned his stare. Then thinking, "What the hell." I pulled over beside him.

Almost the moment I rolled down my passenger side window, the old man called out hello to me. I leaned forward to get a good look at him as we chit chatted. He was the perfect picture of a grand father! My dick started getting hard just at the sight of him.

We weren't very long in our conversation when the old man asked if I wanted to come over and sit in the van so we could talk better. Well, let me tell you, I didn't waste a moment taking him up on his offer. I hurried around and opened the van's passenger door. The first thing I spotted was the crutches resting partially on top of the console between the captain chairs. Then my eyes register the missing leg! The right leg of the old man's green work pants were folded back and pinned about half way between his hip and his knee.

I tried to ignored his handicap as I climbed into passenger seat. "Let me move these damn crutches out of the way." The old man said as he pushed them into the back of the van. Then we started chatting again. He told me was from North Carolina and down here to visit his daughter. But from the look of his van, I figured the old man lived in his van. There was a sleeping bag in the rear and lot of plastic bags of clothes and other clothes scattered on the floor of the van.

As the old man told me his story, I finally managed to glance down at his crotch. The old man zipper was wide open. I must have sucked in my breath abruptly because the old man asked me if I was all right. I glanced up into his pale blue eyes and nodded my heads. Then glanced back down at his open fly. The old man looked down at his own crotch when he saw me staring at it. "Looks like I forgot to zip up." He said but he didn't make any effort to zip up his pants.

Then he smiled at me as he reached his hand down into his open fly. He didn't say a word as he pulled out a fat long uncut dick. It was beautiful. His foreskin hung over the head of his fat moon white dick. It was a beautiful sight to me. I see cut dicks in the sauna all the time (and love them) still there nothing light the sight of a big natural dick!

I forgot completely about the old man's missing leg. All I could see was the big uncut dick that he was waving in front of me. The next thing I knew I had replaced the old man's weathered hand on his fat dick with my own hand. Then my lips were touching his loose overlapping foreskin. When the old man sunk back in his captain chair, I just proceeded to take his foreskin covered dick head into my mouth.

His dick tasted wonderful! Without saying a word, the old man reached down and grabbed the base of his dick and pulled back his foreskin until I was sucking on the naked head of his dick. "That's better." The old man mumbled as I began to suck and lick his dick. I desperately wanted to taste the old man's cum before someone came and parked next to his. The fear that we might be caught just heightened the pleasure. In fact, I reached down and unzipped the fly of my shorts and pulled my own dick out.

Then I was pumping my on fat dick as I was sucking on the old man's fat dick. It was heaven! The old man started hunching my face as his huge dick started to twitch. Then cum suddenly gushed from the old man's dick into my mouth. I shot my own load almost as soon as I tasted the old man sweet cum. It was heaven.

The old man let me suck on his dick a moment longer before pushing me away with his hand. What followed was an awkward moment as the old man pulled out a dirty handkerchief from his back pocket and cleaned the spit and cum from his dick as I shoved my dick back into my shorts.

I told him that I hoped that I could see him again. He said he didn't think so that he was going to head back to North Carolina next week. I really wanted to talk to him longer but the old man wouldn't even look directly at me. So, I knew that he was finished with me. It was sad. I would have loved to talk to the old one legged man and set up a meeting with him again. But hell, it takes two to tango so I told him I had to get to Fort Lauderdale and got out. Almost immediately he started the van. As I was opening the door to my car the old man drove off.

I can only hope that I see the old man again. It was a special moment for me. I would love to see some more of him. Now, I'll have to make regular stops at Fern Park in hopes of running into him again.

This afternoon I did get to the gym. I saw one old man that I seen in the gym before but he always had his clothes on. Even though he must be 70 he's got a wonderful hairy body. He's bald and got a wonderful smile. Well this afternoon I got a brief glance of him naked while he changed from his bathing suit to his shorts. Of course his dick was cut. It was small but with a nice head. He crotch was very hairy as was his ass. God, I would love to run my hand over the old man hairy bubble butt.

So, my Friday was great! Heck, I got to get to bed early tonight. We have to take Sinan and Joe to the airport early tomorrow morning. It was nice having them visit but it will also be nice to get back to my routine and be along with Dieter. I know I gained weight with all the visitors we have had the past month. Dieter and I have to get back to eating less and I have to make sure I practice tennis every day so that I get my exercise. All this starts tomorrow.

Saturday 10:54PM 04/24/03

Dieter and I had to take Sinan and Joe to the airport early this morning. We left the apartment about 7:30AM and got to the airport at 8:00AM. So we are rid of your latest guest. Although I must say that I really enjoyed their visit. It was lots of fun. Still, its nice for it just to be Dieter and me again in the apartment. Although their leaving left me a little depressed today. I countered the depression by practicing tennis and later in the afternoon renting some videos. I watched Kill Bill and loved it. But it's not one for the light of heart. There's tons of violence. But, like I said I love it and the innovative way it was edited. It's a real unique movie.

It's going to take a couple of days for me to get used to not having guests. Tomorrow I'll finish watching the videos I rented and practice tennis. Don't think I'll go to the gym until Monday.

Like always when I get depressed I think about Frank. I really want to go back to Fort Dodge, Iowa where he and I lived and worked in his bookstore, Wigdahl-Bookfinders. I just want to walk the same streets I waked with him just one more time. I want to drive by the house where we used to live. Just be in the same space I shared so many years with him. Yes, I know it will not bring him back to me. And I know that Fort Dodge probably doesn't look anything like it did when I lived there. But, I'll still feel close to Frank once again as I walk the streets and remember when he was in my life.

I've heard that people that get Alzheimer's relive their past. Well if that the case I hope I get it in my old age. I would really enjoy reliving the days I spend with Frank. It would certainly be worth the price of the disease even if the images were only in my mind.

Dieter's just went to bed and I guess I should join him. I do love him very much in a different way than I loved Frank. As long as I have Dieter in my live, I can bear the loss of Frank. Don't know what I would do if something happened to Dieter.

Gee, guess I'm still depressed. Oh, well, the sun will surely shine tomorrow.

Monday 8:30PM 04/26/04

I didn't do anything Sunday except watch science fiction movies. Oh, well, I did take my dick out and was playing with it. I had it rock hard when Dieter came into the guess bedroom where I was watching TV and caught me red handed. He asked what was I looking at that had me so hot. I could tell he didn't like me playing with my dick. I told him I just felt like playing with myself. Then I asked him if he wanted to jack me off. Well, he liked that idea and came over and set beside me and grabbed my hard fat dick and started pumping it. I usually cum quick. And this time was no exception. I told Dieter to catch my load of cum in his hand and he did. Damn, I shot a wicked big load. When I finished cuming Dieter was holding a handful of cum. Hell, it was fun getting caught playing with myself. Felt like getting caught by your daddy.

Today I practiced tennis. While I was practicing a guy (looked about 60) came up and asked if I wanted to play doubles with his group that they need a forth. He said it him and his wife on one side and I would play with another guy. I declined. I've never played doubles and didn't want to make a fool of myself playing with strangers the first time I tried it.

Later, after I finished practicing I watched the guy's group playing doubles. They had found another player. One of the guys playing against the man and wife team, surely moved as though he was gay. God, the way he bent his leg inward when he served looked like some girl trying to toss a baseball. He was chubby and didn't look my type, but I'll watch out for him. Maybe when I see him closer he might pass the test.

I also spotted a man that I have been admiring for a while. I had seen him walking in the morning, at the guy (clothes on) and also practicing tennis before. He was along practicing serving and then returning balls tossed by his ball machine. He really could hit the ball with power although his serve was a little awkward. We chatted a little when he took a break and he said he had just had a hip replacement and was trying to get back in shape. Well, I tell you what, I don't want to play against the old man. But boy would I like to play with him in bed. he is a real heat stopper. He sort of short and stout, but not chubby, just strong looking. He's got a nice round face with short white hair. I didn't see a wedding ring on his finger but that doesn't mean he's not married. I am going to make an effort to make friends with the guy. He just might be one of those straight men than likes to have his dick sucked once in a while.

Tomorrow I have to go to Fort Lauderdale to mail out DVD and collect new orders. Now people can order my videos and subscribe buy credit cards online. I found a company similar to Paypal but one that works with adult websites. Doesn't cost anything for the user (like Paypal the merchant pays the fee). But I have had to increase my prices for DVD and also add shipping cost. Sorry, but just can't keep absorbing shipping cost! Don't know of any other website that sells DVD's that ships for free. And $20 for my DVD's is just too damn low a price!

OK, I still got several DVD's do burn for shipping tomorrow so better get to work.

Tuesday 10:39PM 04/27/04

I'll tell you right up front, I didn't see even one old man's dick today. Well, I did see some in my imagination as I wrote a short story today. Still got to proof read it (yes... I do try). Hopefully will get it posted tomorrow.

I didn't go to the gym because I had to go to Fort Lauderdale and mail DVD's and pick up new orders from my PO Box. The bathrooms are still not finished at the Coral Ridge Mall. Damn, wish they would speed up the work a little. Don't they know that us old queers use that place to meet and look at each other's dicks! God, you would think they would be breaking their chops to open the bathroom up again and help us out. Yea, right!

Memories from my child hood keep popping up. Like today I remember the first time someone asked me to suck their cock. His name was Joe Cobb. I must have been 8 and my brother Rudolph must have been 7. Joe was about 12 at the time. My brother and I were helping Joe's father pick tomatoes. We had finished and us kids were standing around at the end of the tomatoes rows horsing around like kids will do when Joe pulled out his dick to piss. My brother and I both watched him piss and then he started playing with his dick and it grew and grew until was huge. I was fascinated with it the moment I saw his dick. I also noticed immediately that the head of his dick didn't have foreskin over it like mine.

Well Joe saw my interest in his dick and asked me if I wanted to touch it. I did. I reached out and grabbed his dick while my brother watched. God! I enjoyed touching Joe's big dick. Then he told me to suck it. I shook my head. He asked my brother to suck it and he shook his head too. Then Joe asked me again. Man, I wanted to suck his dick so bad but I knew I shouldn't do it with Rudolph watching so I refused.

Later as Rudolph and I were walking home I told him that I really enjoyed playing with Joe's dick and I told him I wanted to suck it. Well my brother told me I was nuts. That guys didn't suck another guy's dick.

Still about a week later the three of us were together at Joe's house, actually in the barn. My brother and I wanted Joe to go swimming with us down at Big Creek but he said that he wouldn't do it unless I sucked his cock. I wanted to but I said no. But then my brother, Rudolph told me to do it so Joe would take us with him swimming. So, with my brother watching I sucked on Joe's dick until he came.

That was the first time I sucked a guys dick. Well, when I was 6 I did play with a little 3 year old kid's dick under the house. But I didn't suck his. I just played with it. So, I guess I'm always known that I was gay.

A few year's later, I remember going down to an old fishing hole and finding another kid name Joe Johnson showing my brother, Rudolph, his dick. That Joe had an larger uncut dick and he was trying to get my brother to suck it. When he saw me he called me over and asked me to suck it. Well, by then I had realized that you just don't go sucking someone's dick in front of your brother so I wouldn't suck his dick.

If I had it to do all over again, I would have suck Joe Johnson's dick with my brother watching. Cause after my brother's death in 1987 in a motorcycle accident I found out that he was bisexual. Just think of all the fun I could have had if I had known he too like to suck cock. Damn, I wish I could go back in time. Boy, oh, boy would I do a lot of things different. Well, I can't go back in time but I can go to bed (Dieter is calling me to come to bed) and I will.

Wednesday 10:26PM 04/28/04

I did make it to the gym this morning. My back has been bothering me that past two day so I haven't practiced tennis. I don't know if it was the weather (it was cloudy here today) or just that most of the snowbirds have left, but the gym was all but deserted. So, I only got to see Bob naked in the sauna. He's the guy that collect for a children's charity outside of a local Jewish deli. He's got the biggest low hanging balls I seen. Not that he lets me get much of a look at them as he always keeps his legs crossed. But I do always get at least one quick look see.

After he left the sauna I just set there watching the few people in the gym as they came out to weigh themselves or to get a drink of water. And as I set there looking out the glass door of the sauna I kept my dick hard. I guess I was hoping that one of the old men would glance toward the glass door and see my sitting in the sauna with a hard on. Well a couple of them passed by and could have gotten a look at me as I jack off. If they did see me they didn't let on. Anyway after about twenty minutes I finally just shot my load in my hand as I set in the hot dry sauna. It was fun. Maybe the next time some old man will catch me jacking off. It like playing Russian roulette!

I've been getting lots of order through the new PayPal like company called Ikobo. Funny name, but so far it been great. Doesn't cost anything for the user as I pay the transfer fee (just like I did with Paypal). I've been getting complaints from people that can't use there credit cards, now they can. That's a little progress.

I finished a new story and posted it today on the fiction page. http://enjoyoldpics.com/mag/main/bigbrother.htm  It was fun to write. Good to get back to writing. Just hope I can write another story before the end of the week.

Gee, I have called Sal and Erwin in a couple of weeks. Got to remember to call them tomorrow. Maybe next week the four of us will get together for lunch. Oh, a young guy (23 and his (70yo) lover are looking for some action. They live almost across the street from Sal and Erwin. I told the young guy that I would ask Sal and Erwin if I could give their telephone number to him So, I'll ask them tomorrow when I call.

Ok, that's it for today.

Thursday 10:34PM 04/29/04

I burned DVD's all morning. Now that people can order using their credit cards I'm busy as hell. But I did find time this afternoon to go to the gym. I hate it when Bert is there. He's not my type and so I have to sit in the sauna and be a good boy. Boring! I did see one chubby old man naked in the sauna after Bert left, but his dick was so small, hell I couldn't even see it when he set down.

But it was a very interesting visit to the gym. The nice handsome old man that was practicing tennis with his ball machine on Tuesday, I think it was Tuesday . . . or maybe Monday, walked into the locker room and damn if he didn't look directly into the sauna when he passed. I was sitting there alone with a half hard on. I know he must have seen my dick. And then about five minutes later he came back in and again he glanced directly at me as he passed the sauna's glass door. Now, it might be just a figment of my imagination but if not then I'm going to have to make sure I talk the Mr. Handsome Tennis Player again the next time I see him at the tennis courts. In fact I am going to make an effort in the future to bump into him as often as possible. He so damn straight looking and acting that I can't imagine him wanting to play around, but I can hope, can't I.

Tomorrow I'm meeting a friend (business only) at the Alibi. He wants to help make a movie using some of the professional senior models which we will pay. So, we'll see how it goes. If we make this super video it will not be until the fall at the earliest.

In the mean time I hope to make another video this summer. Just have to get some new faces together for it. Need someone over 60 with a nice dick that can fuck and a nice 60+ bottom, hey, make that a couple of each. I'm not going to make another video until I get new people.

My back is better, so over the weekend I can start practicing tennis again. If I don't keep up the exercise I going to be totally out of shape again and I don't want that to happen. Can't practice tomorrow because of having to go to Fort Lauderdale. Maybe on Saturday I'll see Mr. Handsome Tennis player again?

Friday 5:11PM 04/30/04

Had a nice time with George at lunch. We talked about getting some professional models in for a video. He gave me a price list from P. R. Simon.  Well I had already looked up older4me and scanned the videos for sell in their video store. Everyone it getting $49 and $59 dollars for VHS videos. After the review of current senior men videos (and lots of them have young guys in them and most aren't as good as they the product I produce) I raised my prices. Now my 60 minute DVD's are $29.95 and the 60 minute DVD is $39.95. And here I was selling DVD videos and paying postage for only $20, while others are getting over $59.95 for DVD and charging handling and postage. And everyone says I'm greedy! Well, I'm tried of it. I put out a great product and I'm going to charge more. I also raised the price of one year subscription to $29.95 for the website. Most of these websites are getting $39.95 for three months. If I lose some long time subscriber . . . well so be it. To upgrade the website, I need to it to generate more income.

Hey, I noticed that the restrooms at the Coral Ridge Mall are almost complete. I would say they will be in use by tomorrow or at the latest early next week. I don't know about other locals, but I looking forward to seeing what IMPROVEMENTS they have made. Will keep you informed the next time I go to Fort Lauderdale. Probably will go on Tuesday.

I'm writing another story. Hope to get it posted by Sunday.

As I was having lunch with George, I remembered an incident when I lived in Fort Dodge, Iowa and used to go to the XXX-Theater on Main Street. I remember that there was this tall skinny old man that I used to see drinking in the sleazy bars in Fort Dodge. The old man was extremely handsome. He was about six feet tall and skinny like I said. He had pale skin and blue eyes. He was balding but still had some white hair on his head. I always saw him talking to women in the bars and they were always after him. So I thought he was totally straight.

One night I when to the late movie I purposely set beside the skinny old man. Well, I was horny as Hell. So after a while watching the movie, I finally unzipped my jeans and pulled my dick out and sort of hid it in my hands as I played with it. The old man didn't seem to notice that I was sitting next to him playing with my rock hard dick at first. Then I could see him turning his head slightly toward me.

"Fucking big dick mother-fucker." The old man mumbled under his breath as he rose from his seat and walked away, heading toward the front of the theater where the restrooms were located.

I thought it was over. That when he came back from the bathroom he would set somewhere else. And I was sort of nervous that he might say something to people I knew in the bars the next time he saw me out drinking. Well, I was watching the old skinny man closely as he came out of the bathroom. I wanted him to sit down again before I got up and left. But the old man came right back and took the seat beside me again. I couldn't believe it. And again he mumbled "Big dick mother-fucker". As he sat down.

There were only a five people in the theater that night. So, I wasn't taking much of a chance when I moved my hand and openly exposed my long fat dick to the old man. And damn if he didn't turn to face me and stared right at my dick.

"Fucking fag." He said but he didn't make any effort to move to another seat.

I started jacking my dick in plain sight of the old man. He would watch me jacking off and then turn back and watch the move a few minutes and then turn back to watch me jacking off again. I got so hot that I findly found the courage to touch my right hand to the old man's leg. I was frightened a little as I don't know how he would react. But he didn't do anything. He let me touch his leg without flinching or moving it.

Well, encouraged, I slid my hand up his leg toward his crotch expecting him to stop me or get up from his seat at any moment. But he didn't. Even when my fingers touched the crotch of his gray work pants he didn't react. I felt his dick. God! A surge of excitement raced through me as my finger felt his long slender dick under the fabric of his work pants. My finger located his balls. They felt nice sized.

Then throwing all caution to the wind, I grabbed the tab of the old man zipper and unzipped his fly. He old man allowed me to. And even allowed me to reaching inside his fly and pull his dick and balls out. Then he sort of sunk down in his seat as he mumbled. "So suck it, Fag."

Well, I did just that. Even thought the other customers in the theater could plainly see me, I started sucking the old skinny man dick. I was in heaven as his dick grew longer and harder in my mouth. If the old man pecker had been thicker I couldn't have taken it all, but as it was slender, I managed to deep throat his entire dick.

I must have sucked on the old man dick for thirty minutes as I played with his big low hanging balls. Then he tensed up in his seat. "Swallow my cum, Fag." He mumbled as he shot a big load into my mouth. And even after he stop cuming the old man continue to allow me to suck on his dick. But after a few minutes of sucking on his soft pecker, I got up to leave. The old man didn't say a word as he moved his legs out of the way so I could get pass him. And strangely enough he didn't put his dick away. It was still hanging out his fly when I left.

Man, that was an exciting encounter! It's great to remember such exciting moments.