Well, Well, a new month is upon us. Damn, how times flies by the older you get. Young people just can't fathom the feeling of how time quickens the older you get. It's something that has to be experienced. Well, I started the new month by going to the gym early as Dieter and I had signed up to go to our building lunching today.

As I was approaching the clubhouse, I spotted R.... (the tall skinny old man with the mustache that I have been horsing around in the sauna.) He didn't see me. The gym was almost empty. One old guy that I meet when I first started going to the guy, the chubby dark tanned old man with the very short dick that has a nice big head) greeted me in a very friendly manner. I didn't get to see him naked, but I did get to see a short old man with a mustache taking a shower that I had seen many times exercising. He had left the curtains open and had his eyes closed and was taking a shower. He had a tiny uncut dick and his pubic hairs were so thick that it was difficult to see his dick or balls.

After the shower I set in the sauna and playing with my dick to keep it semi-hard and watched a couple of old guys I had seen before undressing. Then I want to the showers again. Just when I was finishing R.... came in and took a shower. I couldn't get back in the sauna as I had to go to the luncheon. He saw me dressing and stopped to say hi before going into the sauna. Now if I had been in there with him he would have stay a long time and came back in with me later after another shower, but since I wasn't in the sauna he only stayed inside a moment. I am sure he's interested in playing around. And I must admit he has some big balls I would enjoy playing with. I am sure he and I are going to do something together that we shouldn't before long.

The luncheon was fun if simple. I got to see some of the old men in our building that I haven't seen before. The one that goes to the pool in the morning sometimes and reads (also I think he plays with his crotch) was sitting at our table. He chubby, with a mustache and at least 80. He's not married but his girlfriend lives in our building also. I think he services more than just her. I would love to service him. He looks a little like Walter Cronkite (spelling is wrong but the old CBS news anchor). I bet he has a big set of balls! Damn, would love to lick them! Well, I'm going to keep a close eye on him. Bernie and his wife also set at our table. Yes, I got a good look at her. She said she had been away for lot lately. Also said they had been married 50 years. And then there was a little spunky old man and his fat wife (she was sitting on my right). I think he's the guy that on my first day at the gym when I saw an empty treadmill and got on it, ran up to me and started shouting that what was I doing on the treadmill that he was next. That I had to put my name on the list. Well he was friendly at the table.

Got a call from a nice older man from TX this afternoon. He said he was looking to move into the Fort Lauderdale area. And wanted me to send him some pictures of small housed, one with enough room for him to put in a pool and a privacy fence. So, will be busy tomorrow doing some research for him and e-mailing him pictures of properties. I'm really excited about the response I am getting from my real estate page. I really look forward to meeting new guys moving down here! I can sense that some of them are very nice and it is going to a joy to meet them and help them find the place they're looking far!

I am also surprised how many orders and subscription I am getting by mail. Someone from South America e-mailed me if he could send me money for a dvd by Western Union. Well, that got me thinking that maybe that would be the answer for people that wanted to use credit cards, especially those overseas. It is difficult for someone in the UK to get a money order in US dollars or a check in US dollars (I get a lot of orders from the UK) so just maybe Western Union might be the answer. So I put a link to Western Union on the order form. Time will tell if it works or not. But at least I kept trying to find solutions to the problem incurred by losing paypal.

All in all, I am very happy to have reactivated my real estate career. In spite of being shy, I love meeting new people (older men that is) in a controlled environment and really look forward to helping them find a place here in South Florida. Most people don't realize that I'm shy. I guess people think that when someone is staring in videos and have their nude pictures all over the web that they can't possibly be shy. Well, I am shy to a fault! Been one of my failing not to have overcome my shyness. Like going the the luncheon. It's really hard for me to do something like that. But strangely enough I am not shy in a bar! That's the one place that I have always been bold. I've really never understood how I can be so open in a bar filled with older men and clam up at meeting people in a social gathering. And to call someone that I don't know on the telephone is like having a knife in my heart. I just have to force myself to do it. I never could make cold calls as a real estate agent. Just the thoughts of making cold call makes me break out in a sweat.

So what kind of real estate agent does that make me. Well, it makes me a very laid back, no pressure guy that will do anything to help someone. But I don't tolerate unfriendly people. If someone can't conduct themselves in a friendly respectful manner, then I'm not the agent for them. Money doesn't impress me nor does it get my respect. I work just are hard trying to find someone a $40,000 condo as I do trying to find someone a $400,000 home in Wilton Manors! No, that's not quite right, guess I would work harder trying to help the guy looking for a $40,000 condo because he would need my help more. Anyone of those gay studs in the all gay real estate offices would break their neck trying to sell a $400,000 house but wouldn't give someone looking in Sunrise Lakes for a $40,000 condo the time of day. No amount of money is enough for me to put up with pushy, manipulative people. And if my having made videos or my having my nude pictures on the web bothers someone then I'm not the agent for them. I give respect and request respect in return. I guess that defines me as a person as well as a real estate agent. Guess I'm not for everyone, but then I don't try to be.

Sunday 10:44 PM 11/02/03

Today was a nice Sunday. Did some real estate research for the guy in Texas first thing this morning and e-mailed him some pictures of properties. Worked on a grandson/grandfather story. Did some research for the guy coming down later this week from Chicago. Watched some science fiction movies on TV. Ate some more of Halloween candy. Watched movies. Ate candy. Had sex with Dieter. Cooked a good dinner. Watched another movie. All in all is was a pretty good Sunday. Still, I'm glad it's almost over.

For those of you stuck up in the north country, it is presently 72 degrees and raining. Tomorrow high will be 85 and showers. Not perfect weather but probably better than where you are. I love the weather down here. And now we are getting into the best period. Will shortly finally be able to wear long sleeve shirts! Now, that's a treat!

Dieter just stuck his head out of the bedroom to say he was going to bed. He hates to go to bed without me. He is really a wonderful man. Twenty years we have been together and I'm closer to him now than that I have ever been.

I'm really excited about working again. Will not go to the office tomorrow but will go on Tuesday. Don't really need to go to the office often as I have the MLS on my home computer. Actually it's just a website you go to now. Really neat. Don't have to have any special soft ware.

I wonder if it's a sign of aging when you constantly have flash back to the past. I can be watching an old TV show and suddenly I remember what I was doing one particular night with Frank. Strange how the past seem to grow in importance the older you get. I suspect there come as times when some people only live in the past. Wonder will it happen to me?

I feel lucky. Lucky I have the website. Lucky I have some wonderful members that are so supportive. I got this one guy in New York name Chas that is so wonderful to me and for no reason. He is always sending me nice e-mails. Encourages me when I'm down. I've never met him and probably never will, but I feel very close to him. He's the exception to my rule of not getting close to people over the internet. I'm also lucky that I enjoy my work, both the website and my real estate business. Lucky I have Dieter. Very lucky I have people that enjoy reading my stories.

Just wish I would push myself harder! Write more and better stories! Come up with some fresh ideas for the website! Damn, I so competitive! Hate it when someone can do something better!

Tomorrow I go to the gym. I look forward to my visit to the gym. Don't exercise anymore. I go just to see the old men naked. Like looking at the galleries on the website except these are real live naked old men walking around in the dressing room, sitting in the sauna or taking showers! And I am right their in their mist getting an eye full. Hell it like a straight guy been in a girl's locker room. I've noticed several men taking showers with out pulling the shower curtains closed, so I'm going to kept mine wide open from now on and hope some of the old men will watch me taking a shower. I shaved my balls and around the base of my dick so that it shows better. I wonder if any of the old men recognize it. Maybe one of these days I'll shave my crotch completely. I bet that would catch their eyes! Hey why not!

Well, it raining like cats and dogs outside my window.  And my eyes lids are drooping so I guess I better go to bed.

Monday 11:00 PM 11/03/03

Another day. Got to the gym late. R... was there but just leaving. He did stop and ask me how the luncheon went. Thought I wasn't going to get any eye candy, but the old man that stands outside one of the Jewish shops on the weekends collecting for some children's hospital was taking a shower and he was drying off the same time as me. I had seen him before, but really never got a good look at his dick. It is very thick and he got some of the biggest set of balls I seen on the Wynmoor men. He's not really good looking. He got fat veined legs but boy would I like to suck on his thick dick and play with his big balls. He almost completely hairless. He's seventy-three and has salt and pepper hair. Take the water exercise class every morning except for the weekends when he's in front of the shop collecting for the children's hospital.

Then the rest of the day was work. I finished the story "Hunting With Grandpa." Then it was doing research for the guy coming down from upstate New York. Got to be ready with some nice properties. So that means research and previewing properties.

Got a shoot with Sam and Nakedwilly on Wednesday at 10:30 AM. Hope I gets some good footage and enough for another video. Want this one to be more kinky? But I found that you don't always get what you want. Think it will be a hot shoot! But time will tell. Will put pictures of the shoot on the website Thursday or Friday.

Tomorrow I have to go to Fort Lauderdale and check my PO Box and mail some dvd's. Will check out Fern Park on my way there and of course will be sure to checkout Coral Ridge Mall. That place is really getting busy! Too busy to do anything in the restroom. Just too many snowbirds here!

Maybe later this week Dieter and I will go to Tropics for a drink. Haven't been to the bar for a while.

Sal and Irwin are coming over for dinner on Wednesday. That's going to make it a busy day. First the shoot and then guest for dinner. Oh, well, I'll survive. Anyway, I enjoy being with Sal and Irwin. Dying to have sex with Irwin. Sal was telling me that his young roofer friend came over the other day and after Sal fucked him and shot off in the young guy ass, he asked Irwin if he wanted to fuck him. Irwin did to Sal surprise. Later Sal asked his young friend which fucked him better him or Erwin. The guy said he wasn't going to say. Well that meant the he enjoyed Erwin fucking him better. Sal was upset because Erwin has a nice thick dick while Sal's is small and the guy liked Erwin's bigger dick. "See, Pete, size does make a difference." He told me over the phone tonight. Ok, he wasn't really upset with Erwin. He's just wishing he had a bigger dick.

I have to watch it when Sal is around Dieter because he starts talking about all his tricks. Dieter hates such talk. Sometimes I have to kick Sal under the table to get him to shut up. Sal loves to talk about sex. Hell, thats about all he talks about when I around him without Dieter. He is a blast. The next time he goes on a trip I'm going to have sex with Irwin. Sal wouldn't care but Irwin and I think it's best if we don't tell him if we ever have sex (or ever had sex). We will keep it under our hat.

So, looks like I am going to have a busy week. Have to go to the office, either tomorrow or Friday to pick up my new business cards and say hi to everyone in the office. Really am getting more e-mails and calls than I thought I would be getting so soon after activating my real estate license. I'm really impressed.

OK, Dieter in bed and he hate to go to bed without me.

Wednesday 5:38 PM 11/05/03

Nothing happened yesterday it was all real estate research. But today I filmed another movie "Pete's Orgy" it is only on DVD and will sale for $20. I had a lot of fun (I mostly was behind the camera but did suck nakedwilly a little and piss on him in the shower) This DVD has fucking and dildo scenes and lots of sucking. Here's some pictures I took of the guys after the orgy.

Got to rush and get dinner ready, I late.

Thursday 7:34 PM 11/06/03

Went to the gym but wasn't nothing to see. R... wasn't there. He goes swimming and it was raining. The chubby old man with the mustache was in the sauna but wearing his swimming suit. Guess he doesn't want to show off that thick dick or his big balls. I didn't stay long at the gym. Came back to the apartment and started editing my latest video "Pete's Orgy". Was going to call it "Pete Kinky Old Men" but after viewing it changed the name. I put a clip of Dieter getting dressed and helping me check out the lighting. He didn't want me to put it in the video but I did. If you want to see some stills from the video here's a link "Pete Orgy". I'm not in as many scenes as usual which is good.

Tomorrow is going to be a hectic day. Meeting with the guy coming from upstate New York for lunch and then showing property. He looking or an inexpensive condo in a 55+ community. Will show him Sunrise Lakes as they are the best buys at the moment.

Then I have burn some dvd's and also mail several. Also will probably have to pick up the master copy of the "Pete's Orgy" from the production company that burns the originals for me. I think, I'll get to the gym but might not. Will see how it goes.

The latest video is different. It has two chubby guys one his his late 40's and other one, in his 50's (I think) and also features Sam and Nakedwilly and have a short at the end with me and Ron (who is in his 60's). Well, we'll see what the reaction to it is. Guess, the next one I do I'll call "Pete's Kinky Old Men" but who knows circumstances might dictate a different title.

I've gotten more real estate calls! Really nice to be back working. Did have to burn some late night oil after Sal and Irwin left. By the way the dinner went great. And Dieter and I had a delightful time talking to them over dinner. Irwin came straight from work (79 yo and still works) and was wearing a suit and tie. He looked like a million dollars. I wanted so much to reached under the table and squeeze his big balls but I managed to behave myself. They are first people we have invited for dinner. I thought I would be having more people over, but it is so nice and quiet here that I hate to disturb my peace and quiet by having guess.

OK, got to make some calls for appointments to real estate agent I wasn't able to get in touch with today. Want to have a good line up of properties for the guy from up state New York.

Friday 8:30 PM 11/07/03

Well I had a busy but productive day. Didn't get to the gym. And didn't get to seen a single naked old man! Now that's doesn't happen too often. But I just didn't have the time to slip over to the gym. Orders have been coming in so fast, that I had to spend the morning burning dvd's. The rushed to pick up my the master copy of my latest video "Pete's Orgy" on my way to Fort Lauderdale. Didn't even have time to go into the men's room at Coral Ridge Mall after finishing mailing an arm load of videos.

Meet the wonderful guy from up state New York. He is a doll!  67 yo with gray hair, hairy arms, heavy set but not fat and God Damn handsome. He also has a wonderful personality. We were going to go to George's Alibi for lunch but the line was too long so we went to the Mexican place on Federal near Sears. I really enjoyed working with him (it was all business) and showing him condos. Started with Sunrise lakes as they are nice sized and still a bargain. And we did see some nice apartments for under $50,000. But he didn't like the lack of trees in the landscaping at Sunrise Lakes and I agreed. Sure it's nice to see the golf course but I rather see lots of trees.

Well, I took him to a condo in Tamarac that is only a little more expensive (60's) but the landscaping is more varied and to both of our liking. And actually found a until that he wants to make an offer on. Tonight I'll be doing some research on unites that have sold in the condo the past three months so that his offer will be reasonable as he definitely wants it but I don't want him to pay more than he has too. So will meet him tomorrow for lunch and do the paperwork. I'll tell you, if he moves down here he'll be the hit of Chardee's.

I got several calls from my real estate ad while I was showing him condos at Sunrise Lakes. It feels damn good to be busy again. But got to find time tomorrow to go to the gym! I got an e-mail from an old man flying in from Mexico that want to shoot a scene with me on Wednesday morning. He is arriving Monday afternoon and I'll call him on his cell phone as set up a time and place for the shoot. He is a real grandfatherly old man and hot looking. I do think it will be a great shoot. Great, it can be the start of my next video. Well I'm leaning toward calling it "Pete's Grandpa's" Well see how it goes. Will post pictures of the shoot soon after it happens.

I thought about going out to Tropics tonight but decided to stay home and do my work. I haven't been to Chardee's on a Friday night in ages. Used to be my favorite time to go there. It's packed with old man and the perfect time to go if you want to see everyone. But I just don't get the thrill of going there now like I did when I was itching to have an affair with some of those old men. I wouldn't mind meeting a straight old man here in Wynmoor and have a little thing with him, but I'm not interested in getting hot and heavy with someone from Chardee's or Tropics. This is a small town in many ways. If you go to bed with some one at Chardee's, half the senior gay community is going to knew about it by the next morning. So be warned. I've been there, done that and learned my lesson. Keeping Dieter is more important than having a one night stand with someone from the bars.

Ok got some research to do.

Sunday 3:45 PM 11/09/03

Well, I did make it to the gym yesterday. God, seems like my life is boring and going to the gym is the excitement of the day. Then I think that there must be lots of people that would love to see all the naked men I see and  when it doesn't seem so boring. I did get to see a new old man naked in the gym. He is from Argentina and is very hairy. He has a small dick but nice medium sized balls. He looked in his seventies. I did enjoy looking at his hairy body in the sauna and I must admit that I did stare at his dick and didn't make any efforts to hid what I was doing. And I kept tugging at the foreskin on my dick as I we talked. I shaved my balls and now they really show up nicely. When I take a shower I leave the curtains completely open and play with my dick until it is almost hard. Several old men waked by my shower stall yesterday while I was showering. They couldn't have helped but see my engorged dick. Of course all made believe that they didn't seen anything. But it was fun.

Did meet up with the older man from up State New York and he made an offer, which I was informed, a little while ago, by the other realtor was accepted by the owner. So he has his condo in Tamarac. I think he'll be happy with it as the condo was the price he wanted to spend and had the amenities he was looking for. At least he was very happy. I asked him if he had gone out last night and painted the town, but he said he didn't like bars. Well, that's a shame because he would have been a big hit at Chardee's. I'm sure that once he moves down here he'll start getting around to going to Chardee's and Tropics for dinner if nothing else. He is certainly a strikingly handsome older man.

It was raining all day yesterday! So Fern Park was out. I did stop by the Coral Ridge Mall and it was hopping. I got to see a skinny old man taking a piss. He had a little dick. His fly was open enough that I could see his white pubic hairs. He glanced over at me while I was pissing and I played with my dick until I got a hard on. I love getting a hard on in at the urinal with an old man watching. I would have loved to have jacked off for him but someone came in and the old man left. Still, it was fun.

Dieter and I didn't go out last night. We have really became home bodies since we moved to Wynmoor. I guess we love the peace and quiet here so much that we hate to go into the hustle and bustle of Fort Lauderdale and especially the noisy and crowded bars. We stayed home and watch the Harry Potter Movie. Ok, Dieter fell asleep in the middle but I watched it. I love science fiction. I read all the Harry Potter books straight through in July. Never do that again! Almost blow my mind. And it was a couple weeks before I could write a story for the website. Damn, that reminds me! I got to start a story! Maybe later tonight or tomorrow. The imagination of the author is fantastic as is her writing. Hell, wish I could write half as good as she does. Oh, well all men aren't created equal.

This week I do have a shoot with the old man from Mexico. That is if it works out. He sent me some pictures of him and he really looks like the grandpa next door. I do think it will be a good shoot if it comes to be.

Got lots of things to do tomorrow. Have to go to Homefinders and pick up my new business cards. Go pick up the condo docks for the guy from up state New York. He is flying back home on Tuesday and have to get him the docs.

Plus I have a box full of videos I have to mail out. Order as coming in much faster than I thought they would. Seems people don't mind ordering my mail. Burning dvd and vcd can be tricky so I have started tested each on my DVD player before sending it out. Catching a bad copy certainly saves me a lot of time and also a lot of inconvenience for the customer. Nothing worst than receiving a hot old man video and popping it into the DVD player and it doesn't work. My DVD player is two years old. If it plays in my DVD player then it good to go.

An older man just called me on my cell phone. He's coming from Ohio next weekend to Miami and wants me to come down and take his pictures for my website. I hate driving down to Miami but hey, I need more photo sets so I'll do it. Don't know how he looks. It always exciting to meet someone for the first time. Hell I might just click the pictures and get my ass out of his motel or? Who knows. Depends on what he looks like. And he might come down and not even get in touch with me. I have come to expect the unexpected. If anyone from out of town is 60 and over and want to put there pictures on the website and are visiting Fort Lauderdale give me a call and I take pictures. (954) 647-7787 or e-mail me hroland@bellsouth.net  But please if you are not 60 I'm not interested in taking pictures of you ( and please look your age).

Well the gym was nice this morning. The old hairy man with the limp was in the sauna and I had a delightful time looking a this hairy body. He's got as much hair on his chest as I anyone I've ever seen and there's a big patch of gray. He's toothless but has remarkable blue eyes and a nice face. He has a short cut dick but a nice dick head. And as we set talking he reached down and tugged at his dick and it did get longer. And his balls dropped down and really looked nice. I stayed as long as I could before the heat drove me out of the sauna. Damn, it was a pleasure to sit there looking at him.

After the gym I went by the office. Checked what was going on and if my new business cards were ready but they weren't. An old friend of mine  works at Homefinders Cindy. She is really a character. I love making her laugh. In fact I enjoy making people laugh. Having a sense of humor is very important to me. I joke around with people all the time. But it took me a long time to get Dieter to laugh. Although he speaks English perfectly it is his second language and he missing a lot of jokes. It used to drive me crazy when I would say something funny and he would just look at me with a puzzled expression on his face. Well, I don't have that problem with most people. I had them laughing at the office today and it was fun.

Called the old man in Miami today, the one flying in from Mexico. He's coming to the apartment on Wednesday to do a scene with me. He looked really grandfatherly in the pictures he sent. Will see what he looks like in person. I don't know if he Mexican or Cuban, but think he's probably Cuban. He has a cut dick. Will be interesting to see how the chemistry between us goes.

I stopped by my PO Box at the post office at Coral Ridge and was surprised to find several order for my new video "Pete Orgy". I didn't figure I would be getting orders for it this soon. Great, just hope they like it as it is different from my other videos. Will be doing another one called Pete's Orgy 2 as soon as I get enough new people together.

I stopped by the restroom near the post office, but nothing. Ok, a young guy around thirty something came in and started playing with his dick, but I didn't stick around for the youngster's show.

Damn it's been windy today. We actually have a wind advisory out for the area. Guess near the shore the winds are quite lively. Here they are only 20mph. But so what. The temperature is 75F and will be 85F tomorrow so what's a little wind in paradise. Don't miss the New Hampshire weather or skiing!

Ok, now it's back to the story I am writing. A trip back into life on an Alabama farm and a sexual encounter with an old  horse hung man.

Tuesday 10:24 PM 11/11/03

Tomorrow is the shoot I am suppose to have. Hope the guy finds Wynmoor. Am sending Dieter out shopping. He did ask how many people were coming for the shoot. I lied and told him three. Don't want him to know that it just me and the Cuban? Damn I hate having to lie about it but sometimes what people don't know really want hurt them and this is one of the cases. Makes me feel like shit sometimes but I just grit my teeth and do what I got to do to keep on making videos and keeping the website going.

Not much to tell about the gym today. Did seen a new old man. God! He must have been in his 90's undress. And like many of these Wynmoor men he had a huge set of balls. Just wish I could get my hands on some of the old men with their bull sized balls. Another old man did take a long look at my dick when I came out of the shower. Ok, so it was semi-hard and he had a right to do a double take. Was fun to see the look on the old man's face with he saw my dick. That look along was worth the trip to the gym.

Dieter and I went to the swap shop on 441 shopping. I didn't cruise the bathroom as it is only busy during the weekend. But now Dieter likes to going when there are less people. So there goes one of my spots for looking at dicks. I do always go to the bathroom at publix but haven't seen anything there lately either.

My thoughts keep returning to the shoot tomorrow. I'm always nervous before filming a scene with someone I've never met before. It's sort of like a blind date. Here I going to have sex an old man I only know from a picture. Shocking! Shocking that I do what I do time after time. I try to keep in mind that lots of people enjoy seeing the results. For them I keep making videos.

I spent most of yesterday and today writing a new story. It's seventeen pages. I haven't proof read it yet. (Yes, I do try to proof read my stories and check the grammar but I have my limitations) I really enjoyed writing it which of course means no one else is going to like it. Oh well, I have to write for myself above all else. I actually get a hard on writing stories, at least I do when I am writing one I like. If I let myself, I could jack off two or three time a day when I am writing stories and the same goes for posting pictures. Some times I do get so turned on by a picture that I am posting that I'll stop and do jack off.

Dieter has already gone to bed but I have to stay up and finish burning some copies of Pete's Orgy I have to mail out tomorrow. Sales of it has been better than I had expected. Seem people like the mix of the two big guys with Sam and Nakedwilly. To be honest one of the best scenes was lost when the camera wasn't recording while I was actually fucking Nakedwilly in the shower. I'm going to call him back to do the same over one of these days as I think it was hot. Hey shit like that happens when your are filming. Just hope I don't have camera problems tomorrow!!!

Wednesday 9:46 PM 11/12/03

I'm tried. Finished the story. Proof read it. Should have proofed it again but am just to tired. So I posted it. The name of the story is Mr. Smith. Damn I had fun writing that perverse story. But it left me mentally drained.

The shoot today went on with out a hitch. Edwardo was nice. He has a long dick. I even managed to fuck him on camera. Wow, that's a first (at least the first that something didn't go wrong and I lost the scene). Here's what he looks like.

He lives in Mexico close to Mexico City. He's a really nice man. I enjoyed meeting him. Loved his accent. It's nice to meet nice people. I am really surprised at the type of people that want to be in my videos. Some are people that you never suspect would want to do something like that. Guess they all have two sides to their personalities. Guess at some time or other most people have had a desire to see what it's like to be in a movie or to be on camera. I guess there is a certain type of person who is excited when they are in front of a camera. I'm glad and wish they were more.

But believe it or not I missed not being able to go to the gym this morning. Sometimes I have more fun watching the old straight men of Wynmoor in the sauna or taking a shower than I do having sex. Sometime fantasizing about sex is better than actually having it.

Got an e-mail from a 65yo man from Ohio that is interested in buying a condo in a 55+ community near Fort Lauderdale. I sent him some pictures of listings. It's fun. I love doing the research and trying to find exactly what people are looking for. Gives me a break from working on the website which at times I need.

My eyes are almost closing I'm so tired. Ok, let me drag my tired self to bed.

Friday 5:50 PM 11/14/03

Yesterday had to go to the Miami, actually I went to Coral Gables. I was driving down Le June road looking for my the street I was suppose to turn on but notice that only the main cross street had streets signs. Then after going a long way pass the street I was looking for I realized that the street names were on post on the ground. Just a prime example of how different Miami is to Fort Lauderdale. It like suddenly entering a different country. I stopped at a gas station to ask for direction and the attendant only spoke Spanish. But I'm not knocking Miami, I think it is a beautiful city and I love old Latino men. Some of them have whoppers size dicks and lost of foreskin to play with.

So, I really didn't do shit yesterday except a little real estate research. But a guy from Spain e-mailed me wanting me to make a movie of old men making love to another old men's feet and then of course having sex. He offered me $300. Of course I say no thanks. It's not that I couldn't do it, as it would be easy. Just that I'm not interested in making a move for $300. Now worth my time or effort.

Today, Friday, I did get to the gym. R... was there. I found it funny that even though he had just arrived and hadn't done his exercise in the pool, when he saw me in the sauna he came in. Of course we chatted and each of us pulled on our dicks from time to time, he did it more than me. I did get to seen a new old man. He was chubby and about 75yo. His balls were small but low hanging, and his dick uncut (of course). He was fairly hairy. I certainly wouldn't have kicked him out of bed.

Then it was off to the post office in Fort Lauderdale to pick up orders from my PO Box and mail an arm load of dvd's. I stopped at the restroom in the Coral Ridge Mall. A young guy in his thirties with a yellow work shirt was playing with his nice uncut dick. I watched him as I was taking a piss and couldn't help but get my a dick a little hard to show him who had the biggest dick (shame on me) before leaving.

I didn't stop at Fern Park. Had to cook lunch/dinner for Dieter. Did a rack of lamb in the over with rosemary, garlic, and pineapple. Severed it with Cauliflower coated with sauté Italian bread crumbs and also served pan fried potatoes with dill. Was delicious! Dieter loves to eat and I do all the cooking. Use to love cooking, but not so keen on it anymore.

Well, the weekend is here. I enjoy the weekends. Saturday is my favorite day. Sunday is my day of depression but I enjoy a few TV shows that come on Sunday night so the day isn't a complete washout.

Will start another story tomorrow. Don't know what I'll write about. Never do until I sit down at the computer and start to type. Something good or bad will come to mind and I'll start typing away and get quickly lost in my story as I become the main character and enjoy all the things that happens in the story. It's such a trip! If I didn't have my writing I wouldn't be able to cope with life. As I can always sit down in front of my computer and get lost in a story and all the sorrows and troubles of my life vanish for a while. I guess if I could be a better writer by making a pack with the devil I would do it in an instant. I would surely sell my soul for the skills of some of the authors that I read. But as he doesn't put much value in my soul, so I don't expect an offer.

Dieter's listening to the local news on TV drinking a glass of red wine and I'm here on the porch taking sips of my beer as I write. You, know. Just once when I'm having sex with some of those old men in my videos, I wish one of them would make love to me. Oh well, that's life. I'm filming sex when I'm wishing for something more. Who knows, one of these day one of these old guys might even want to kiss.

Saturday 9:08 11/15/03

Guess I make a mistake and put Saturday on yesterday's entry. Don't know why, as I knew it was Friday. Oh, well. Didn't go to the gym this morning. Hurt my back lifting a gallon jug of milk out of the frig. Yes, sounds stupid. But that's what happen. So I couldn't tell Dieter I was going to the gym to exercise, could I? He doesn't know I stopped exercising and am now only going to look at old men. Sometime we out smart ourselves.

Was restless, thought briefly about going out tonight but only briefly. Anyway Dieter's wouldn't want to go to the bar so I didn't even mention it. And wasn't in the mood to write a story. So basically did shit all day! Didn't burn dvd's as I should have. Will have to burn dvd all day tomorrow to catch up with orders. But while I'm doing that will probably work on a story on the other computer. That's the best thing about having two computers.

I'm surprised that people read my journal. I think I live a dull life. Am certainly glad that it's read as much as it it. Heck, I get e-mail and notes all the time from guys that say that they read my journal every day.

Am going to visit my sisters in Dothan, Alabama during the Thanksgiving week. Look forward to seeing my youngest sister's kids, two boys and two girls. The two boys remind me of me and my brother when we were kids. The oldest one has dyslexia like me an lives to hunt and fish like I did as a kid. He fourteen. I wonder if he is gay? The other nephew is short and very bright like my brother was. My sister wants them to come and visit Dieter and I for two week during Easter break. She knows of course that Dieter and I are gay, heck she and her husband have both been to gay bars with me. I'm not sure the kids know, but they probably do. Dieter and I have had his nephews and other nephews of mine visits us up in New Hampshire but then we had a house with seven bedrooms. They slept in one wing and we in the other. Now living in a two bedroom condo, it going to be a little more intimate. Oh, well, if the two boys 12 and 14 don't know we are gay they will. And I'll have to kept a close eye on them, can't have them peeking into my computer. But don't really see a problem. They like Dieter and me and well take them to the beach and they can go swimming in the pool out back. And there are several canals, one right outside of Wynmoor that they can go fishing in. So, I'll see that they have a great time. And I'll watch the oldest one for signs of him being gay.

The nephew of my oldest sister that used to visit me and Dieter in NH found my website and webcam and sent me a nice e-mail a couple of months ago. He was really supportive. Basically said he (he's straight just got married for the second time) didn't see anything wrong with what I was doing. So that made me feel good. I am blessed to have so much support from all of my family. They know I gay, they all know about my website. I never hide anything. I use my real name on my website Howell "Pete" Roland, Jr. I'm there for anyone to find if they search the net. So when I go visit my sisters, I don't have to lie about what I do. They'll ask me how my website is doing, and I'll say great!

Sunday 10:17 PM 11/16/03

Wrote a story today. Not bad for a Sunday. And of course had to catch up burning DVD's. Got a lot to mail out tomorrow. But did find some time to put some nice links to real estate listing on my real estate page.

Had to cook dinner it being Sunday and all that. I did Turkish stuffed red peppers. It's one of Dieter's favorite dishes and so simple to make that I don't mind doing it. Like I said before, I used to love cooking now I cook when I have to. This is how I do my stuff peppers. I cut the stems along with the top of the red pepper off (toss them away). Then empty the seeds out and pull the pulpy veins out as much as possible. I use six peppers as that is how many fit in my deep covered pan snuggly. I stuff the peppers with 1 and 1/2 lbs ground beef (my variation for more flavor is to add another 1/2 pound of Jimmy Dean sausage if you don't eat pork use another 1/2 lb of ground beef) mix the ground meat with one finely chopped onion, a table spoon of Westershire sauce, 1/2 table spoon Grey Poupont mustard, 1/2 cup of catup, 1/2 cup uncooked rice, salt and pepper to taste. Mix the ingredients well and stuff the red peppers with the meat mixture. What's left over just pile on to of the peppers and press down firmly on it so that the meat mixture will stay in place while cooking. Place the stuffed red peppers in the bottom of a Dutch Oven or other deep cooking pan with a cover. Add water in the cooking pan until it reaches within a 1/4 inch of the top of the red peppers. Put four cubes of beef broth in the water. Cook on top of the stove at a simmer for one hour.  To serve, place the stuff peppers in individual soup dishes, then spoon the liquid from the pan in to the soup dishes with the peppers. The final touch is to add a big table spoon of yogurt to the liquid surround the stuff pepper and serve. The yogurt give the soup (liquid) and stuff peppers a great taste. Ok, enough boring cooking.

Dieter has already gone to be. I could tell by the tone of his voice when he told me he was going to bed that he doesn't like it when I stay up later. When I'm burning the video I take them to the back bedroom when they are finished and test them on my DVD player. It's two years old and I figure that if they work on it then they should work on anyone else's DVD players unless they have so obscure brand. Anyway while I am fast forwarding through the videos I get turn on seeing myself having sex with some of these old men in the videos. I could jack off four for five time a day watching the videos if I let myself.

Dieter did walk in on my at your old apartment while I was editing one of the videos and saw me in a scene sucking off one of the old men. He didn't like what he saw me doing, but I just told him that the other guy didn't show up and I had to step in. He really didn't get mad. But that's the only clip he's seen. I would love to sit him down and show him the full scene with the old man and me. I would get a big kick out of Dieter watching the video of me sucking the guy's dick and then cuming on his chest. And I bet Dieter would get damn hot too. I bet we would have some hot and heavy sex. But I afraid to. He might get mad. But it would be nice. Oh, well, fantasying  is fun too.

Monday 8:59 PM 11/17/03

Didn't get to the gym this morning. Had to go to Fort Lauderdale to mail DVD's and pick up my mail from my PO Box. There were a lot of orders for my latest two DVD's My Old Men and Pete's Orgy. Great!! I did get a quick glance at an old man with a big belly. He looked around 70 and had white hair. His belly was huge. His dick average but he had one big set of balls. But as old men were back up waiting to get to the urinal, I couldn't stay as long as I wanted. Stopped by Fern Park on my way to Fort Lauderdale but there was an old man standing by his car that I know (no sex involved) and I didn't want him to see me cruising and he did want me to see him either, so I didn't park. But it looked very active.

Took a quick spin through Veteran's Park and stopped in at the toilet. A skinny old bum was taking a piss. He flashed me, showing me his long, long slim dick. He didn't really have a beard, but was unshaven for a couple of days. He was bald and ugly but had beautiful clear blue eyes. He stared jacking himself off. And when he saw I was watching he said he let me watch him shoot off if I would give him a couple of bucks. Well, I thought it was worth the money so I handed the old man a couple of dollars bills and true to his word he started pumping his long thin dick. In less than two minutes I was watching him shot a big load of cum in the urinal. It was fun! Well worth the money.

Dieter had gone to Coral Ridge Honda to look at a Honda Element (SUV). He came home with a Honda Element so that I could take a look at it. We drove back to the dealership and he bought one. It's a brilliant orange and black. It's really boxy and so ugly that it nice looking. I'm glad he got it as it is an automatic and the Saturn he was driving was a manual. His coordination isn't as good as it was before his stroke, so I wanted him to get an automatic transmission. He had wanted a Honda Element since he first saw one. And, I wanted him to be happy so I approved.

I'll try to get a picture of him and his SUV tomorrow and post it.

Well, I'm tried. Buying a car takes a lot of energy and time. Can't bore anyone with a receipt because I didn't cook tonight! We stopped at and ate Chinese on the way home.

I am really getting an urge to go the bathhouse. Just got to sneak away one of these days!

I got a note from the guy from Mexico that was here last week. He is really a nice man. I do hope he gets some action from his ad. He really got a nice long dick and can take a big dick up his hot ass. OK, it's bedtime for bonzo!

Tuesday 7:24 PM 11/18/03

Dieter is like a little kid with a new toy since he got his Honda SUV. Damn it nice to see someone happy. With all his health problems, I never know from day to day how his health is going to be. So I really try to do thingf to make him happy. Helping him get his toy was one of those things.

I did get to the gym today. Saw a guy naked that I've seen once before. He's one of the few with an uncut dick. He's a big boned old man who's had a heart bypass. He's has a pale complexion and is partially bald, what white hair he has is long. He actually spoke to me which made me feel good. His uncut dick was small when he pulled his shorts down but got a little bigger as he dressed.

Later while I was in the shower playing with my dick, getting it almost hard, when old man walked by and looked at my dick as he passed my shower stall. I enjoyed his brief attention but would have loved for him to walk by again.

The Sauna isn't getting much use. I don't think I've seen more than maybe ten different old men in the sauna since I've been going to the gym. Do wish more of those old men exercising would use the sauna.

Well next Monday Dieter and I will leave for Thanksgiving in Alabama. I'm going to try to write in the journal but it'll be hard doing it on another computer without FrontPage. But I will try. Looking forward to seeing my nephews and nieces also my sisters. Will go out to the gay bar in Dothan. I think it is called the Barn. Last time I was there I did meet an old man that if I had remained in Dothan very long would have gotten to know better.

On Thursday a former lover of Dieter is visiting us from New York. He's Japanese. I can't spells his name. He's 56, I think. When he visits it's like a whorl wind hit. He got to do everything and all at once. We'll probably end up going to Tropics and Chardee's He likes old men and got picked up in Chardee's the last time and I am sure he'll want to try again to find another old man in there. So, I am going to be hurried this weekend. Oh well, it'll be good to have a change of pace.

Friday 5:30 PM 11/20/03

Didn't get to the gym yesterday or today. Just had too much going on. Yoshi, Dieter former lover came in today. Dieter picked him up at the airport and I meet them for dinner at The Alibi and as usual it was crawling with old men. But my big surprise was when I stopped by the restroom at the Coral Ridge Mall. Sitting around a couple of table on the opposite wall from the restrooms were a group of about ten old men chatting. It looked like Chardeer's on a Friday night. I have never seen such a gathering of old men near the restrooms before. So of them I recognized some I didn't. The restroom is about the hottest place to meet old men in Fort Lauderdale. And I also see a lot of old men eating lunch at the silver fox. It has become a hang out for old gay men!

I had planned to taking pictures of Yoshi but my digital camera suddenly stopped working. Oh, well shit happens.

I do want to get to the gym tomorrow. I desperately need a fix of naked old men.

Tomorrow night I am sure Dieter's friend will want to go to Chardee's or Tropics and then we'll meet another Japanese friend of his for dinner. Good, haven't been out in a long time. About time I got out and seen who cruising the bars.

Friday 5:12PM 11/21/03

Went to Alibi again for lunch today. It was crowded! Lots of old men. Some I knew. One that was in Older Men Take One and Take Two (bottombear). Yoshi loves old men so that's why we took him to the Alibi again today. We're going to take him to Chardee's tonight. Last time he got picked up and when home with an old man. Maybe he'll get lucky again. Dieter met him in Tokyo and brought him to America in the 1981. They were lovers for a short time. Yoshi is single and looking. He likes old men on the chubby side.

I didn't get to the gym today. Probably will not make it on Saturday either. Oh, well, one has to make sacrifices when one has company.

Sort of look forward to going to Chardees. Haven't been there in months. Wonder who I'll see? It could be a boring night or it could be fun. I'm betting on a boring night. Still, it will be nice to see faces that I know even if I don't wind up talking to anyone. OK, it time to start supper.

8:37PM 11/21/03

Dieter took Yoshi to Chardees while he was gone I played with my dick here's some pictures.

When Dieter got home I took my dick out again and got it hard. So we went into the bedroom and had great sex. Now it's time to go to Chardee's and at least I not horny and will not get into any trouble. And Dieter is happy. See what a little sex does it makes everyone happy.

Saturday 4:10 PM 11/22/03

Well, I don't know what the weather is like in other parts of the country but here is South Florida it is just delicious. The present temperature is 77F. This morning it was 65F and Dieter and Yoshi went swimming after reading the newspaper with a cup of coffee.

The old man that usually walks in the pool was there when they went swimming so I tried to include him in the pictures but tried not to be obvious about it. The water in our building pool is heated to 85F. It is beautiful to go swimming in the morning.

Here's a a look at the entire pool and a view of our apartment from the pool. You can see our back door between the umbrella on the left and tree just before the second umbrella.

After the swim we all had breakfast and then I when to my PO Box in Fort Lauderdale (Coral Ridge Mall). After I picked up the orders I went into the mall. There was an older gay pissing. I got a quick look at his long dick before he left. But when I went outside I noticed an old man sitting at a table on the opposite wall from the restroom with his chair turned facing the entrance to the rest rooms. When he saw me looking at him he opened legs. He was wearing shorts and his dick and balls were hanging completely out of the left leg of his shorts.

I went an got a cup of coffee from the Silverfox Restaurant and set at a table on the side where the restrooms are so that I could look directly across at the old man. He looked to be in his late 70's and was big boned. He probably once had been a coach as he had powerful arms and legs. His thinning hair was white. The old man had a rough no nonsense look about him like he could be really stern if he had to be.

As I sipped my coffee he spread his legs for me to see his long uncut dick hanging over a set of nice low hanging balls. When ever a woman or someone he didn't want to see his dick walked near he would quickly cross his legs to hid his dick, but still I could see the exposed head of his dick and the tip of his nuts sticking out between his crossed legs. And occasionally he would reached down under his legs while they were crossed and rub the head of his dick and the tip of his balls. But each time the person that he didn't want to expose himself to walked pass he would open his legs wide again so that I could get a full view of his wonderful uncut dick. I loved the way the tip of the old man's dick head stuck out from his foreskin just a little ways.

I got such a hard on as I watched the old exhibitionist. I am sure some of the women that walked pass could see his dick. And the woman behind the counter at the Silverfox must have been able to see the old man's dick if she looked over at him. The sense of fear heightened my excitement as I tensed up every time someone walked by the old man fearing that they would see his the end of his dick sticking out from under his crossed legs. Damn it was fun.

Then the old man sent into the restroom and I followed him inside. We were alone so I played with his dick then leaned over and sucked him but I had no more than gotten his dick in my mouth before some one walked in and I had to quickly play like I was pissing. We both went outside and took a seat at our different tables. I watched him expose himself some more and then it got really busy and the old man left.

I followed him out. He asked where I was parked and I took him to my car. Once inside he pulled his dick and balls our of the leg of his shorts. I jacked him as I asked him if he was married. He said yes but he didn't have sex with his wife anymore. I also asked him if he enjoyed exposing himself to people and he said yes, that it was a great turn on to him. He said he love the look of shock on people's faces when they first saw his dick and balls exposed.

Then I stared jacking the old man's dick. It didn't get hard but I loved playing with it. His old dick had age spots on the shaft. His pubic hairs were snow white. Then the old man told me he was getting close to cuming. I jacked his limp dick faster and held my hand in from of the head of his dick. He started grunting and then shot a big load of thick cum into my hand. I quickly leaned over and too the head of his dick in my mouth and sucked the rest of his load out of his piss hole. Then as the old man watched me I licked his cum out of my hand. Damn that was a hot scene.

So watch for the old man. He drives a dark gray or black pickup truck.
Monday 5:22 AM 11/24/03
Ok, got rid of our whirlwind guest! And it almost time to get on the road to Alabama. Putting in this entry without the aid for FrontPage so there is not spell checker. Hope I don't make to many mistakes.But this is how I will have to do it on the road so might as well start praticing. Dieter is still sleeping will wake him up at 6:00AM I'm really not into the bars any more. Went to Tropics and then Chardee's on Saturday. Met an old man that I had seen and chatted with on icuii. Actually I met his lover first. As he approached me as I was coming out of the bathroom to tell me how much he enjoyed my website. Then when I got back to the table near the back bar where me, Dieter and Yoshi were standing, I spotted an old man that looked like I had seen him before but I couldn’t place where. Then his lover (the guy from the bathroom) came up to the guy and said something about my website. The old man looked at me and said “Aren’t you the dirty old man from the internet.” Then he went on to tell me his name on icuii.
Of course Dieter is looking at me as though to say what going on here? Then the old man asked right in front of Dieter if we have an open relationship. I quickly say no! He laughs and looks at Dieter and says “If I got you to separate he would go with my friend and you would go with me.” Well, ok, so Dieter was eyeing his friend and I did find him attractive, but I very seriously doubt that Dieter would have jumped in the bed with his friend. Dieter goes to be for love! Not for sex. Anyway, the whole scene just reinforced my thought that going to the bar with Dieter isn’t a good idea. Sure, Dieter suspects that I am in most of my videos, but he doesn’t need someone tell him so to his face and that is what is going to happen in the bars one of these nights. Then he’s be all over me about it and I don’t need that. I’ve got troubles enough as it is.
Take last night. I was up loading pictures and I up loaded the pictures to the directory instead of to the file in the directory. Then not paying attention, when I deleted the pictures from the directory I also deleted the file that contains today’s net pictures. Spent hours rewriting the file. That’s why it has a new look.
I expect problems while I am on the trip. I am sure the webcam will stop working as it is touchy and I have to work on it every day to keep it on line. So, if it goes down it’s gone until I return Dec. 1. Nothing I can do from afar. Or if there is, I don’t know how to do it. If they webcam goes down people are just going to have to live with it until I get home.
OK, time to make coffee and get on the road. Even though Dothan, Alabama where I am heading it close to the Florida state line, it is going to be much cooler up there. Damn, I love this South Florida weather. I’m packing a jacked and a sweater. But worst of all, I might have to wear socks. Old timers in South Florida almost never wear socks! Coffee time. Then wake up the big D.
Tuesday 11/25/ 10:53AM

Well, we arrived in Dothan Alabama. Damn it cold up here. Last night the temp got down to 35F and to day it only getting up to 68F. I miss Fort Lauderdale all ready. It was 80F there yesterday and will be about the same today. I love the South Florida weather. Dieter is freezing in ass off. Well, he still got enough ass for me to take some pictures. Will not get to post them until I get home. We stop first thing at my favorite oyster shack Hunts and each ate two dozen oysters on the half shell. They were delicious! And I don't know if it was the oyster, but he was horny this morning...but I say no! You can't give in all the time. I changed the pictures on the website today. And have it set up that I can do that each day I am away, but that about all I can do for the websit until I get back home.


We stopped at rest areas several time and I did get quick looks at some nice old men's dicks... mostly uncut. There are some gorgeous old souther men here in Dothan, Alabama! They make me drool. Reminds me of when I was a kid and us to hangout at the mall and watch whenever an old man sent into the restroom. I would hurry in and sometimes get lucky and get to suck them off. Nothing like sucking a married man off in the toilet for a quick thrill.
Dieter and I will go to the gay bar here either Friday or Saturday night. I am sure I will not see many old men but at least Dieter will get some eye candy. Probably my sister and her husband will join us. I just hope I don't drink too much. I hate hangovers and I have the worst one and it only takes a few beers to give me one. I'm not much of a drinker.

I think you have to live in a place like Fort Lauderdale that it so gay to recognize the difference between it and a "normal" community. I've been around so many gays that it's hard to relate to straight people. They talk about different things they we do. It's sort of refreshing in a way. But, still I'll take Fort Lauderdale.

Wednesday 12:09 PM 11/26/03

I'm still here in red neck land. Beginning to miss Coconut Grove and Wynmoor. Would love to be able to go the gym and see some naked old men this morning but it going to be a while. We are returning home on Monday, but it's an all day drive down. Been taking pictures. Will bore everyone with them when I get home. My Oldest sister Ann is baking cakes for tomorrow. I think we are going to have at least three cakes and a couple of pies. People in the south cook and cook and cook some more for Holidays. I'm afraid I'll gain some weight.

It's really been nice being with my two nephews. They are so eager to visit me and Dieter. I think it will be fun having them visit. One of them, Cody, reminds me on my brother when he was a kid. He's smart as a whip. And keeps everyone on his toes with his quick wit and sarcastic remarks. He's only twelve but acts much older. I have him some old comics in Spanish that I picked up in Mexico years ago as he told me he wants to lean Spanish.

This Thanksgiving will be the first time all of my family have gotten together in fifteen years so, that alone was worth the dive up. I hope everyone has a great Turkey day tomorrow. I know my sister is going to have more food than we all can possible eat. Hope everyone are as blessed with family as I am and will enjoy their Holiday. For those alone, I would like to say you aren't really alone, I'm with you in spirit!