Today I finally got to the gym and damn I enjoyed it. The hairy old man with the limp and the missing teeth was in the sauna. God, I would love to snuggle up to him in bed and feel his hairy body against me. The hair on his chest in solid white! And man does he have a big headed dick! He reached down several time and touched it. And let me tell you he couldn't have missed that I was staring straight at his dick. I didn't make any effort to hide where I was looking as we chatted. I might be wrong, but I don't think he minded me looking at his dick. I am going to try to get back to the gym at the same time again. Will not be able to tomorrow as I will have to go early as I have to go with Dieter to Fort Lauderdale. He has a doctor's appointment.

I also had to go to Fort Lauderdale today to pickup orders from my PO Box. And there were a lot of them!!! Great! Afterwards I drove through Veterans Park and stop to take a piss when I saw an old bald heading man heading toward the restroom. When I got inside he was at the middle of three urinals and a young homeless guy around 23 was at the wash basin splashing water on his face.

The old bald headed man had his dick and his balls hanging out of his zipper. He had a big cut dick and a set of big balls. I took the urinal between him and the kid (the old man didn't like that) and leaned over and stared at his dick while he tried to get the attention of the young homeless man. Well, he never did get the guy attention or else the guy wasn't interested in him but I gave him more attention than he wanted. He stalked out mad but I had fun watching him.

I had stopped by the restroom at Coral Ridge Mall but it was dead. So was Fern Park when I drove through. Hey, I got to see two old men's dicks so I enjoyed my day.

Thursday 5:50 PM 12/04/03

My eyes feasted on a thick cut cock of an old man drying himself in the sauna. He had a wonderful long thick dick and some nice low hanging balls. He looked to be in his 70's. I would love to have a go at his thick dick. Still, if I can do nothing but look at it, well I'll settle for that too. I really missed seeing the naked old men at the gym while I was in Alabama. But must say that I'm still a little depressed about not being with my sister and her kids. It made me and Dieter feel like part of a family. Was lots of fun.

Yesterday was a zero. Didn't have time for the gym. Had to take Dieter for his visit to his doctor and then pick up orders from my PO Box. Then spent the rest of the day burning DVD's. It take at least 35 minutes to burn one DVD. I had to burn 30 yesterday. Hey, I'm not complaining! In fact I love it!

I'm already planning my next video. Actually have one segment filmed already. Will do another shoot with Nakedwilly soon. I want to do a shower scene in which I fuck him and then piss on him. Will probably do another scene with Jim (the guy that inserts the tub into his dick) later this month. But I do hope that some new guys come out of the woodwork. Got to have some new talent! I put my ad back into Hot Spots Magazine. Hopefully I'll get some results.

I finally got around to looking at the German video Senior Platinum Edition (a gift) and feel better about the quality of my videos. The quality in some of the scenes were bad. Camera angle bad! In some scenes you seldom saw the old men's faces and that it as important to some of us as seeing their cocks. Yes, my videos certainly hold up well against the German's videos.

But I got to step it up a notch. Will work hard to make the next video better than the last one. Without the ease of using PayPal to subscribe, I can already see that subscriptions aren't going to grow at the rate they did in the past. Will have to put more effort into making and marketing video as more people are willing to go through the trouble of ordering videos by mail than subscribing to a website by mail.

Friday 11:24 PM 12/05/03

Where did the week go! Damn Dec. will be over, the old year will be passed. Time seems to accelerate the older I get. Didn't do anything exciting today. Didn't go to the gym. Jacked off looking at one of the pictures I was posting and then just wasn't horny enough to put in the effort to go to the gym. Also had to go the Fort Lauderdale and pick up orders and subscriptions from my PO Box. Dieter went along and we had lunch at Hamburger Mary's. Enjoy it. There were some nice looking old men scattered out among the fortysomething crowd. The food is go and really didn't want to go to the Alibi. Didn't want to see people I know, just wasn't in the mood for the usually bullshit. You know, people glancing at you out of their corner of their eyes and making comments about the website while they pretend they don't see you.

After the Alibi we went to the Sunrise Plaza and Dieter went looking in the consignment shops and I ducked into Kim Alley Bar for a beer. It's a STRAIGHT bar in the heart of queer country and I must say that I enjoy going there occasionally just to watch and listen to how straight people act. While I was there an old German came and. Damn was he to die for! Just sitting at the bar and checking him out in the mirror was worth the effort.

It's raining. The temperature is 66 F. Love the weather down here. We are getting a cold front. Tomorrow's high temperature is only going to be 68 F and will get down to 45 F Saturday night. Well, when I was in Alabama last week the high some days were only in the 40's so I guess the temperatures are still great here. Actually it's nice when the weather get cool enough to get to wear long sleeve shirts a couple days.

Tomorrow I have to show property. Got houses in Wilton Manors lined up to show him. Wow, can hardly believe the prices in Wilton Manors! A house with 2 bedrooms and 2 baths and about 1000sq ft of living area start at around $250,000! Oh, well, some people have the money and don't want to live any place except Wilton Manors. If that's what they want, then I'll certainly show them properties.

Dieter's already in bed. I'm going to bed just as soon as I post this to the journal. I tired and depressed (rainy weather). Spent a lot of time today searching for a replacement to Paypal but nothing comes up that I think will work.

To bad I can't write a happy journal all the time, but sometime I just don't feel happy. I've got lots of demons chasing me and sometime they break through my armor. But then one can't expect to be happy all the time. Well, even if I'm not happy all the time, I do make an effort to see that Dieter is happy.

Saturday 11:05 PM 12/06/03

Ha! Just got banned from my own website. Funny. Well, luckily I still could get into the control panel and un ban myself. I broke my own rule of never attempting to use an incorrect passwords more than twice. The third time you would have to turn your computer off and then back on to reboot before you can get in to the website again and if you try to use the incorrect passwords four times...banned.

Today was real estate! In the morning real estate research. In the afternoon showing properties! Enjoyed it and got to see some very nice properties and meet some great people. Nothing more you can ask for, good properties and nice people.

Got a note from a subscriber and he went over his day for me. Well, just reminded me that I have it easy. I shouldn't complain about my bouts with depression as there are lots of people with more serious issues to deal with. My ups and down moods are very minor when I see what some people have to deal with. Still, sometimes depression can literally sucked the life out of you if you let it.

Dieter is already in bed. He always calls my name out just before he goes to be. It's like him asking me to come to bed. He hates being in bed alone. So, I'll have to call it a night shortly. I see the northeast is getting snow storms. Well, it's 52 F here tonight and tomorrow the temp is going up to 70 F. Hell, I'll take that over snow storms any old time.

I know that lots of people in small towns are still in the closet. When I lived in Fort Dodge, Iowa I had several friends like that. One was a teacher. He thought that no one knew that he was gay, but everyone did and talked about it behind his back. If you are in a small town and living with another man...then you are probably kidding yourself that people don't know you are gay. I been there and know from where I speak. But then that's how some people have to deal with their homosexuality, through denial. If that's what works for them fine. I'm not knocking it. It's sad that some people still have to hid who they are. But that's life. And life has never been a level playing field. It's just that I sometimes loose touch with how I once had to live in a small town, now that I live here in the Fort Lauderdale area. I just couldn't get back in that old dark closet.

Monday 6:06 PM 12/08/03

Sunday was my relaxing day. Watched science fiction movies. Today was a real estate work day. Mostly doing research. But it is something that I have to do on a regular basics. Got to write some new stories for the website, but just not ready. Maybe tomorrow. Some people think that you just sit down and write. Well, that's not always the way it is. For me I've got to be in the mood and inspired. When those two ingredients are present then I usually write several stories. Then again that's followed by a dry spell.

Tomorrow I've got to go to Fort Lauderdale to mail videos and pick up more orders from my PO Box. Was going to do it today but was so involved in the real estate project that I didn't even go to the gym. Will go to the gym tomorrow, I hope.

Might have lunch at the Alibi but haven't decided yet. I like the people there better than Hamburger Mary's, but must say I like the atmosphere and the food better at Hamburger Mary's.

My sister bakes cakes. She is baking me a Lane cake and mailing it to me. Only those of you from the south will know what a Lane cake is. It a cake that is usually only baked at Christmas. It's a yellow layer cake. The filling is made of grand up raisons, coconut nut, pecan and whisky. It is great! Buddy Mo, I'm sure you know a lane cake. I'm hoping that she will also send me an Icebox fruit cake, that's a no bake southern fruit cake. I'm trying to get her to go on e-bay and sell her cakes. She does a great Italian Cream Cake also and a great Red Velvet Cake.

I hate Xmas! The holiday season it a sad time to me. I miss Frank during the holiday period, miss my mother and my father. I remember Christmas with my brother in New Hampshire before he was killed in a motorcycle accident. And memories of Christmas from my childhood came back to haunt me. Yes, I'm not looking forward to Xmas. I guess if I was up in Alabama with my family it would be different. I sure am missing my family. Never thought I would ever feel that way but seems the older I get the more I yearn to live closer to my sister and her kids. Strange, as I've never been a family man. Guess I always put the pursuit of the gay life first. Well, now I realize that there is more to life than living in a gay area. But Dieter is opposed to moving up to Alabama. So the solution is to buy a small place near Dothan, Alabama and spend time down here and up there.

Life is complicated.

But what is a joy at the moment is my growing real estate business. I get calls every day from people visiting my real estate website. And the leads are keeping me on my toes doing research and setting up shows. Great!

Tuesday 5:27 12/09/03

Just got an e-mail from nakedwilly. He's back from his trip to New York and is ready to do an shoot. We discussed me rimming his big smooth asshole and then fucking him. After that ramming his big dildo up his ass and then maybe me fist fucking him....don't know if we will go that far but it's a possibility. Want to make this video very kinky. Will see how it goes. Will try to get another couple of local guys together for the shoot.

Made it to the gym this morning. Wasn't much happening but did get to see a new old man naked. He must of been in his eighties. He had a nice thick dick and low hanging balls. He actually even spoke to me. Also the old man with the very short dick and the dark tan was getting dressed when I cam in the locker room. He is very friendly to me. He always makes sure he speaks to me when he see me. I'll going to have to make an effort to get to the gym around 9:00AM so that I can be in the sauna at the same time he is in there. I do think he's interested in playing around. Will have to see how it goes.

Thought about going to the bar to night but decided against it. I mean all I'll ending up doing is drinking a beer and talking to Dieter. None of the locals will say boo to me and Dieter. It's only when someone from out of town comes into the bar and recognizes me that I talk to anyone. Guess they are afraid I'll put them in my journal. So, anyway, I can drink beer and talk to Dieter at home.

Will have to go out when my friend from Iowa visits us the first of the new year. He'll want to go to Chardee's and Tropics and then later to the strip bars (Boardwalk or Johnies) He like them old or young. He almost 60 and a big guy 6 ft. and 240 lbs. He was a friend of me and Frank when I lived in Iowa. He just retired and is looking to move into Wynmoor in 04.

Hey talk about moving into Wynmoor. A gay guy moved in above us. He about 55 or 56 and thin with a mustache. Well, I'm saying he's gay but I've never talked to him. Just that all the sign point to him being gay. I do think a lot of gays are going to start moving in here. Wynmoor offers much more than Palm Aire and for about 20% or 40% less in price. This place could be a great gay community!!! Men's gym! Sauna! All kinds of clubs. A theater! Tennis! 19 pools! And I do believe it will starting turning gay very soon. And once the gays start moving in... then the older straight couples will move out... that's what happened at Palm Aire and other condos that turned gay in the Fort Lauderdale area. And I hope it happens here. At least I want enough old gay men to move in so that the sauna and showers gets more interesting!

Today was a gray day, but it didn't rain. Right now the tempt is 73F. Nice! The low tonight is going to be 68F and the high tomorrow 78F. Not bad. Yea, I can certainly take this kind of weather.

Wednesday 11:59AM 12/10/03

Just came from the gym and had a wonderful time. First off the chubby old man with the thick dick and huge balls that usually wears his bathing suit was naked in the sauna. Then I watched a spastic old man dressing. It was a sight to see. I wanted so much to go out and help him dress but figured he wouldn't want any help. Got a good look at his dick and it was nice (cut of course) and his body was pale. He had a beautiful face with a straight nose and blue eyes. Would have loved to have gotten him in bed.

But then after the chubby main with the huge balls left the sauna, the most gorgeous old man I have seen in many a day came in. He was wearing his bathing suit but he was still an eye full. I have never seen such long, thick gray hair on an old man's chest. He was hairy all over! The old man looked maybe 70yo. He was short with a beautiful body! His face was round shaped and to die for. And he started talking to me right away. And as I chatted with him I couldn't keep my eyes off his hair chest. And several time during our conversation I reached down and tugged on the foreskin of my dick. Once I saw him glance down at me crotch as I was pulling on my foreskin.

I stay in when he left. And watched the old man take off his swimming suit and sit on the bench while he cooled off. The old man crotch was as hairy was he chest. He had such long gray pubic hair that it almost hid his cock and balls. And I stood in front of the glass door of the sauna and played with my dick while I watched him sitting on the bench naked. I don't know for sure that he saw me, but I think he was looking at me out of the corner of his eyes.

Then the heat of the sauna got to be too much for me and I headed for the showers. I took one of the back showers and left the curtain open. I had just gotten my dick semi-hard when the short beautiful old man came in the shower area and took the shower next to me. From outside he could easily see my big dick and I do think he took a quick glance at it. The old man didn't close the curtain after he entered the shower. So I got out and stood where I could looked directly inside his shower stall and slowly dried myself off as I watched him showering. I tell you it was better than having sex to watch the old man soap his body. God, what a nice shapely, hairy ass the old man had. He surely saw me watching him. But then I got chicken and went back to the locker room. I delayed dressing until the old man came in. And I got a great look at his nice cut dick. It was beautiful nestled in his patch of long gray pubic hair.

When I went to leave I told him to have a good day. The old man said it was nice talking to me and he would see me next time! God, I hope he meant it. I would love to get something going with him! He married. He said he come to the sauna ever third day. Well I'm going to try to get there everyday until I figure out his days. To sneak off and have sex with him would be great!  I just hope it happens.

Thursday 11:50PM 12/11/03

Forgot to post this entry last night. Got distracted with trying to put western union auction on my purchase links and someone e-mailed me asking what to put in the blanks where no information was provided. Well I tried it by just putting any old numbers in the item #, auction# and using my e-mail address as the seller Id. And it seemed to work. Will have to go back to the links and explain things better. Don't know that western union is the answer but so far it is the cheapest thing.

The gym was great yesterday. I finally figured out that the chubby old man with the big balls wears his bathing suit in the sauna before he goes swimming and after he comes from his swim he sit in the sauna naked. Boy did I get an eye full looking at his thick dick sitting atop his huge balls yesterday. And when I was dressing he walked by me naked and I swear his big balls are so low hanging that they almost reach to his knees. He told me he's 84. He got thick salt and pepper hair and a mustache. Would love to play with his bull balls! I stared at his balls while he was in the sauna naked. He must have noticed? Well, we will see and I plan on staring at his balls whenever we are in there alone. One of these days I'm going to get a reaction and don't care if it's a "are you queer?"

I'm writing another story at last. It called Pop and was inspired by an e-mail I got from a dear friend of mine from NB. He knows all about Lane cakes! Of course my story doesn't fit what he says in his e-mail but it did give me inspiration.

His e-mail reminded me of my tortured life in Alabama while I was growing up and before moving to New York City at the age of 22. Contrary to my fictitious stories of my Alabama days (don't be shocked the page is the fiction page) I had never made love to another man before moving to New York. Sure I had suck a few drunks' dicks and used the glory hole at the rest areas but had never been in bed with another man. I remember going to bars and singling out some old farmer and sitting beside him. I would buy him drinks hoping  to get him drunk enough for him to let me suck his dick. I remember bumping my legs against theirs. Sometimes they wouldn't mind but at other time they would move their legs and a little later move to another bar stool or leave. But on those rare occasions when every thing worked out as planned and I would get them to go to another bar with me and park the car on a side road on the pretext of taking a shot of whisky. Then I would finally making a pass at them. Sometimes they would let me suck their dicks and sometime they would get mad as hell and threatened to beat the hell out of me.

Those was some sad, tortured, lonely days when I thought I wasn't fit to live. Sad because I couldn't be happy looking at an old man and feeling a rush of emotion and knowing that he would spit in my face if he knew what I was thinking. Tortured, in that I desperately want to have sex with some of the old men I saw almost ever day. Being friends with them and longing to tell them how much I cared for them, but always having to put on a facade of being totally straight. Jacking off every night thinking about them (Woodrow Cobb, a friend of my father with a set of bull balls, Mr. Hall,  my science teacher and my first love although he never knew it, James A. Ballard, my principal in high school that used to paddle me but I loved him dearly especially after I spied on him taking a piss and saw his huge dick). And lonely because I had no one I could talk to about being queer. And ashamed of being queer because of people like Mr. Murphy who was an old ugly sissy queen that all the boys in school hated. Ashamed because I didn't think you could be queer and still be a decent person.

Yes, I too when through some of the same things that my friend from NB experienced. But unlike him and other, I did something about it early. I researched homosexuals and realized that New York city was one of the centers of homosexual activity and I got up the courage and determination to leave the farm in 1968 at the age of 22 years old and go to the big apple to seek a older man as a lover.

It worked. I got a job and then after dating several old men in New York City, I met Frank C. Wigdahl at the Yukon Bar and Restaurant after a month in the City. I never left him from the first night we met until he died of a heart attach in Fort Dodge Iowa in 1983. But I do remember well those sad, tortured and lonely days growing up in Alabama.

Saturday 9:06 12/13/03

What causes a shy kid/man who couldn't even take a piss with another man using the urinal next to him to turn into an exhibitionist? That's the million dollar question. When I was younger I couldn't piss when someone was watching, not I crave exhibiting my naked self. Yesterday I kept my dick almost hard while I was in the Sauna hoping some of the old men passing through the locker room would glance through the glass door and see my dick. And I spent thirty minutes in the shower with the curtains open playing with my dick and hoping some old man would walk by and look in. Strange how someone become something totally different as they get older than what they were as a youngster. I seem to be coming more and more of an exhibitionist the older I get. Now, I can finally see what thrill an old pervert gets when he flashes himself. I think if I were in a big city like New York City I would ride the subway wearing an raincoat with a pair of jeans with the crotch cut out and flash old men on the train. The thrill of seeing their reaction would be wonderful. Well, I don't know if I would really have the courage to do something like that. But I can fantasize about doing it. And God! Would it be wonderful if I got the attention of some old man and he watched me jack off! Man, that would be better than having sex with him.

Damn, when did I start getting so perverted? How far will I go? How perverse will I become the older I get? Whatever happen to the plain vanilla guy of my youth? Gone with the smooth wrinkleless skin of my youth. Maybe I got more kinky with each wrinkle on my face? If so, I am going to get a lot more kinky as the years come to pass. And damn it, I enjoy being an old pervert!

Monday 8:49 12/15/03

Sunday was a do nothing day. Well, I did go to the gym and got to watch a nice tall old man with a gray beard (he looked about 60) taking a shower. I was in the lone shower that is on the opposite walls from the other showers that faces two other shower stalls. He was in the second shower stall. Well I certainly soap up my dick and balls repeated as I watched him taking a shower. He had his curtain wide open and I had mine open enough so that I could see him and he could see me. And he got an eye full. Although I never got a hard on, I was very close several time. It was a blast knowing that he was watching me.

Later, I did finish the new story Pop and posted it but did little else except watch science fiction moves on the scfi station.

But today was busy! Went to the gym his morning and the hairy old man with the bad leg was in the sauna and I got the pleasure of staring at his dick. I know he realizes that I'm looking at his dick. I pulled on my foreskin several time when he was looking my way as we chatted.

This afternoon I burned DVD's and VCD for shipping out tomorrow. But then Dieter said he was going to Fort Lauderdale about 3:45, I declined to accompany him. After he left I decided to go to the gym again. And boy did I have a good time. I got to see four new old men naked. But I encountered an old man that I don't like at all. He's a smart mouth chubby guy (a doctor I think) that I have seen before. He goes in the sauna with his bathing suit on and I heard him tell another old one morning that he had just came from another gym. Well he was in the sauna with his bathing suit on and quickly left when I came in. And after I took a break and cooled off under the shower I returned to the sauna and he was inside putting his shorts on and again left when I entered. Well, I did see his pitiful excuse for a dick and don't blame him from not wanting to be in the same sauna with me.

But like I said I did see some new guys and one of them, a short slim old man with white hair and a long thick dick came in the sauna. And damn if he didn't sit there with his bathing suit over his head. He was facing me and I got to stare at his huge dick head all I wanted to. And later he and I were in the shower area at the same time and his dick looked like it was semi-hard. It was beautiful. Damn! It made me horny! I would have given most anything to have been able to suck his beautiful cut dick!

Got back home long before Dieter and finished burning my disk. But it was a wonderful day to seeing naked old men. I'm addicted to watching them. I would go to the gym twice a day if I could get away with it! Showing the old men my dick and looking at theirs is getting more and more of a turn on. I'm sure the way I keep looking at their dicks and not bothering to hide my actions will soon start some of them thinking that I'm queer. And to tell the truth, I don't care.

Tuesday 9:49 PM 12/16/03

Another day. Went to the gym again to day. Saw a nice 65 year old bear who was as cute as a button. He was hairy and had a nice thick cut dick. He really didn't want to show his dick but he did show it a little in the sauna. I guess I must have looked at it once too often because he put his towel in his lap. But I still enjoyed the brief time he was full exposed to me.

Dieter and I went to Fort Lauderdale for lunch and for me to send out an arm load of DVDs and pick up orders for more. But the trip was uneventful. I did sneak into the restroom when I came out of the Post Office, but except for the table of about seven old gay men sitting opposite the restroom (so they can watch who goes inside and follow the ones they see that are interesting) the place was dead. No one was inside the men's room.

Was planning to do another shoot this week but, now I'm going to wait until January and try to get some new faces. Do want to do another shoot with Nakedwilly but don't think I'll be able to until after the new year.

Well, it's getting close to Xmas. For those of you that are alone during the holidays, I wish you happy holidays. And if you need a little company on Christmas Day, e-mail me and I'll be glad to respond.

Wednesday 9:32 PM 12/17/03

A cold front is passing through tonight and the temps out here away from the beach will be in the upper 40's tonight with tomorrow's high of 65F. Not bad for a cold front! Now, you know the entry is going to be boring when I start with the weather. But, hell, sometimes there's just nothing happening worth writing about. What, would telling that my sister sent an e-mail that she mailed my Lane Cake yesterday be more exciting? And of course the cake is going to arrive in a thousands pieces but I will swear to my sister that it arrived perfect! She going through so much trouble that if it arrives like a pancake I can't tell her the truth.

Did go to the gym and made a special effort to go early and what did I get for my efforts. Zip! Nada! Zero! Nothing!  That's just the type of day is been...zip, nada, zero, nothing. I didn't do any writing. Should be working on a new story, but . . . the holidays' are getting in the way. Not that I'm doing anything special, just the mood the holidays put me in. Depressed! Wanted to do a shoot with nakedwilly but I just can't bring myself to do one. I'll just have to put it off until the second week in January. Can't do it the first week in January because Rich, my friend from Iowa is visiting.

I did do some real estate work today. Showed some units here in Wynmoor to a senior from Hollywood, FL. He's thinking of selling his home and moving into Wynmoor. Will, show him some more units next week.

I hate not being more productive for the website but . . .

Discipline is what I need! Got to get more discipline! Ok, that sounds like a great New Year's resolution. And that's what I'm going to try to do. To be productive! In the website and in real estate. Ok, let's see if I can do it!

I feel like I'm stagnate. My website is stagnate! My videos are getting stagnate. I need to step up to the next level. I stay awake at night thinking about the situation. It's always in the back of my mind. What's the next move to reach new heights?

It's bedtime. Maybe a revelation will come to me tonight! Hell, who knows.

Thursday 10:90PM 12/18/03

My Lane Cake arrived from my sister in Dothan, Alabama today. It tasted absolutely delicious! It looked . . . well, I will not go into how well it survived UPS tossing it around.

My visit to the gym isn't even worth writing about. Hey, all my visits to the gym can't be a 10! JUST LET THE HOLIDAYS GET OVER! Dieter wants me to cook special dishes for Xmas. AND I'M NOT IN THE MOOD but will do them for him.

Tomorrow, I have to mail some DVD and check my PO Box in Fort Lauderdale. Hope to have a little fun sneaking a look into the rest room at the Coral Ridge Mall. Haven't been very lucky there lately.

Also got to do some shopping. No gifts, just things for those special dishes that I'm going to cook for Dieter. If we go late, might even go the Tropics for a drink.

Would love to break away one of these days and go to the Leisure Time Theater in Hollywood, FL. I've heard that it's really active! I know that the few times I've been there that I've had a great time. But at the moment it difficult to get a way long enough to go the the Leisure Time.

Did show properties today. Show a little old man with a mop of white hair condos in Sunrise Lakes in the price range from $50k to $60k. He was very nice and I had a great time with him! Can't go there though!

I've got a closing coming up in January. Everything looks great. I expect the closing to go as smooth as silk. Keeping busy in real estate in keeping me for getting too depressed. I love doing the research and showing properties to nice people.

Please let something exciting happen to me (that I can write about....). It's almost been a boring week!

Saturday 5:04 PM 12/20/03

Got busy with real estate yesterday afternoon, but before I did I went to the gym Friday morning but it was boring, except I did get a really great look the old man with the huge balls, and I mean huge. He collects for a charity in front of a local Jewish store on Saturdays and Sundays. He's very nice and has a thick dick (cut) but some of the biggest, lowest hanging balls I've ever seen. I swear they hang as low and are as big as those on a price bull. And did see the spastic old man, but didn't see him naked. I really like him (the spastic) and would love to get him in bed. There's something sexy about going to bed with a handicapped old man like him.

Later had to go to Fort Lauderdale and dropped by the restroom at Coral Ridge. An nice looking short and skinny old man was pissing with a small cut dick. I played with his and he played with mine. I would have given him a blow job but the restroom was just busy. I hardly got to play with his dick two minutes before we were interrupted. I didn't say around to try again.

Then is was showing property. Worked showing properties yesterday afternoon and most of today. Hey, that's great. Love it. Finding some nice properties for some very nice old men and some young guys are great too. It serious work but still fun.

Sunday 10:50PM 12/21/03

Sunday is my science fiction day. I went to Blockbuster and am ashamed to say how many science fiction movies I watched today. But still got around to writing a new story. This one is very different and I am sure only I will enjoy it. It's about a young white boy and an old black man! The story is called Snowball (the old black man is so black he is called Snowball). Don't know when I will finish it. Hopefully, by midweek.

Dieter and I when to Tropics around 6:00PM. There was a nice crowd when we first arrived and a little later it really got crowded. Saw some people I knew and some I didn't. Dieter and I just watched people and drank our drinks. Neither of us talked to anyone except for a  quick hello here and there. Sorry, just not into bars anymore. Maybe when my friend come down from Iowa I'll enjoy going out, but right now going to the bars is no big deal. Maybe if we really had friends in the bars then I would enjoy going.

Got a quick glimpse of Sissy Boy, well he goes by the name "E-mail this nice guy" or Niceguy" in the yahoo groups and used to spout shit about me to the groups. It bothered me until I finally realized who he is (a young swishy guy that I used to see in Chardee's and Tropice). I only realized it was him writing all the shit about me by asking myself of all the people that I see in the bars each time I go who hates me enough that he's never said a word to me! Well, one day the face of Sissy Boy flashed through my mind and I was correct. When I spotted him in the bar the next time, I knew it was him by the way he was looking at me. He tried growing a beard so that he would look masculine but it was a joke. Once I realized who he was and how insignificant he was, whatever he wrote didn't matter anymore. I feel sorry for him, wanting to be masculine and being what he is, Sissy Boy.

Well, Xmas is just around the corner. Wish it had come and gone already. And it will before long. Still eating on my Lane Cake! Damn is it delicious!

Tomorrow have a lot of DVD's to burn and pack for shipping on Tuesday. I try to stay away from the post office on Monday as it is a zoo. Hope to stop by the rest room at Coral Ridge on Tuesday too see if I can catch some old man taking a piss. Likely I will. As it is getting very busy! I swear it is a real old man meeting place. Sometime 10 or 12 old men are sitting around at the nearby tables having a social chat while keeping an eye on the toilet door.

Oh, I look forward to going to the gym. Like I've said before, I addicted to it. Just love getting a glimpse of those old men's dicks and never knowing when I'll see a new guy buck naked in the locker room or the sauna.

Dieter talked to the guy that lives above our unit. He's gay. But then we had thought he was ever since we first spotted him with his realtor, a hunky gay looking guy, when he first looked at the unit. Anyway he told Dieter to day that he goes to Chardee's and Tropics and enjoys the eating at their restaurants. Dieter told him that we don't like the food at Chardee's be do enjoy eating at Tropics. I am sure that in the future Dieter and I will invite Ted over for drinks. He seems like a nice guy.

Monday 11:16PM 12/22/03

The gym was a zero today. Didn't get to see a single old man naked. And some guy brought his preteen son into the sauna (they were both wearing their swimming suits) and the kid kept looking at my uncut dick like he had never before seen one. So, I left. Dieter and I went to the Swap Shop on 441 in Margate to buy our fruits. I didn't try the rest rooms as they are only active on Saturdays and Sundays when the market is crowded. But later at publix on Lyons Rd and Coconut Creek Parkway, I did see the dick of an old men that bags groceries. He's a  muscular old man and with a dark tan. He had a beautiful uncut dick which I had to lean over and peek around the barrier separating the two urinals to see. The old men looked at me like I was crazy for taking a peek at his long thick uncut dick, but I didn't care. I told him he had a nice cock and left.

Speaking of friends, we haven't seen Sal and Erwin for over a month. I had thought that when we moved out here in Coconut Creek we would see more of them. But the fact is that they are so into either working (Erwin) or looking for cock (Sal) that it difficult to find a time to get together with them. I suggested that we meet them at Chardee's when Dieter's Japanese friend was visiting but they cancelled at the last minute. Well, me and Dieter are free anytime so if they want to get together with us then they will have to call. I realize that Erwin works crazy hours during the holidays, so I'll try not to get too irritated with them.

Would be nice if we could make some friends where at Wynmoor, but so far we haven't. Oh, I like that old man A.... but he's really not interested in really becoming close friends. He hasn't visited us since, the one time I jack off when he was here. I think his daughter if visiting him. He's still very friendly whenever I see him in the parking lot. But there's just hasn't been much opportunity for him to come by when Dieter's not here. I'm going to have to working on trying to get him alone again.

I still wonder about the old man that sits out near the pool when it warm and falls asleep. I think he's hot after then old women, but I still would like to be alone with him. It would be interesting to see if he's interested in playing around a little.

Ok, so I horny. Will have to take my horny self to bed and dream of an old man, as that's as close as I am going to get to one tonight since I've already had sex with Deiter.

Tuesday 11:37PM 12/23/03

Enjoy the view in the sauna this morning. The hairy old man with the bad leg was in the sauna naked. He told me he's 86 years old. I would love to suck his nice dick and just rub my body against his hairy body. He asked me if I exercised and I told him no that I just come to the gym to use the sauna. He was a little surprised at that. I must say that I enjoy looking at the hairy old man naked in the sauna and I think he is beginning to realize that I do indeed enjoy looking at him naked.

Later Dieter and I went to Fort Lauderdale. We have lunch at the Alibi. We both said hi to Jimmy Stork, the gay mayor of Wilton Manors. Jimmy only likes old men. He's always very friendly to Dieter and to me also. He's a really nice guy and great looking if you like younger.

There were several more great looking old men at the Alibi. It's always fun to go there for lunch. Dieter had a couple of bloodymarys and really enjoyed himself. He's happy. He feels like he's on vacation everyday. I'm really glad to see him happy and enjoying life.

Yes, I like the people at Alibi (more older men) than a Hamburger Mary's, but I have to say the food is better at Hamburger Mary's. And sometimes there are some great looking old men at Hamburger Mary's. Sometimes the old men at the Alibi are well, they like to start drinking in the middle of the day, everyday and it shows. Of course there are some fine looking old men at the Alibi, don't get me wrong. But it is a bar for heavy drinkers!

Did stop in at the rest room again in Coral Ridge but nada! Oh, well, can't expect to see an old man's dick every time you go in, but I can hope.

Tomorrow is Xmas eve. Yawn! OK, next topic.

Haven't finished the story Snowball, but am working on it. Hopefully will have it completed and posted by the weekend. I don't really know what is going to happen in the story. I sort of let the stories write themselves. Don't know if many subscribers are interested in sexual stories about old black men, but I saw this old black man name Snowball in Newton, Alabama when he came by my sister house collecting cans (which the kids save for him) and just had to write a story about him. He looked in his 80's and was pitch black with a head of solid gray hair. And I did scope out his crotch and let me tell you . . . that black man is hung. You see there is a little truth in all my stories. There is an old black man named Snowball!

Ok, Dieter is in bed and it's time for me to hit the sack also. I'm tried. I must say that I think my best friends are some of the people that subscribe to my website. Some are so damn supportive that's it really makes me feel great when I'm down to know they are out there in cyber land. Chas, you are one of the best! And there Buddy Mo and people that I don't remember their e-mail names at the moment that really make me feel like I doing something good. For all of those I send a special thanks! And if I curt with a response, or give you a hard time sometimes, hell that just the way I am! I'm a mean son-of-a-bitch before my first cup of coffee. And it's time for this SOB to call it a night.

Thursday 12/25/03 9:19PM

Merry Christmas! And I'm glad it is winding down. Dieter and I spent a quiet Christmas at home. Dieter loves duck so I cooked a duck for dinner tonight. Today was a day of calling friends and getting calls from friends.

I got a call from a friend of mine from Detroit. His name is Hans. He a handsome 68 year old with a nice big dick. He meet me and Dieter when he was down here looking for real estate for a friend of his in Detroit. We'll I really found him sexy. He's got a very bad personal image of himself. Thinks he's not good looking and fat, but the truth is, he's gorgeous. Gray hair. Beautiful simile. Nice body, not too skinny and not too fat. And like a said a beautiful uncut dick.

Well after our first meeting he would call us each time he came to town and Dieter and I would get together with him for drinks. Well, of course I would be the one that talked to Hans and my hands would always be hovering near his crotch.

Then one day while he was visiting, I got up enough nerve to call him and ask if he wanted to go to Boots. He said yes and I met him there about 1:00PM and we had beers. Well, I started feeling his dick as we talked and he didn't stop me. So later I took him out in the garden and pulled out my dick and got him to take his out. I kissed him and suck his dick a little but he finally stopped me. He said he couldn't do it with me because of Dieter was his friend. Now there a honest man!

Well we have been friends ever since. I still have the hots for him. I really enjoyed talking to him today. I think if something happened to Dieter I would make a play for him. I might have to loose some weight as he doesn't like chubby guys but hell it would be worth it. He's as nice a man as I've ever met and would make a fantastic lover. I'm so glad he called. He said he was coming to Fort Lauderdale in May for the summer. I told him to be sure that he called me. I know he will and this time I am going to spend some time with him.

So, hope everyone got calls from their friend and loved ones like I did today. It certainly helps make Christmas special and helps dampen the sad memories of past Christmas with Frank. And next week is the fun holiday, New Years. I might go out to the bars New Years Night. Haven't done that in a while but what the hell, why not. I've got to stop staying home all the time! Here Dieter and I live near the type of bars that most guys only dream about living near and yet we seldom go out. Yes, it time to go out and meet new people and make new friends.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Friday 10:14PM 12/26/03

Well the new year is approaching so I decided to change the look of the website today. A new look for the new year. I got so involved in putting together the new design that I didn't go to the gym. See, there are some things more important than sneaking looks at old men's dicks.

This afternoon I had to go to Fort Lauderdale and pick up video orders from my P.O. Box and mail out a mail container full of DVD's and VCD's. Of course, I stopped by the rest room near the Silver Fox Restaurant. There was an old man in there but I didn't get to see his dick. Didn't much care as he is one of the good looking men that dye their gray hair coal black, spoiling their looks! He was after a young guy that was at the urinal. The slim young gay was in his late twenties and had a big cut dick and some nice balls. But even though he was very interested in me and my uncut dick, just didn't turn me on. When I went to my car, I saw Bob, the old Fuller Brush man with the huge dick that go to the Wednesday orgies at Marty's place. He didn't see me. I thought about going over to him and sitting in the car and playing with his huge dick, but I had an appointment to show real estate.

So, from Coral Ridge I went to meet a nice straight couple in Sunrise to show them condos in Sunrise Lakes. The old man was nice looking. Both were wonderful people and it was fun showing then apartments. I think they saw one that they really like. I expect them to make an offer this weekend on a nice fourth floor apartment that has a water view.

I've almost decided to go out to the bars for New Year's eve. Haven't seen the New Year come in at a bar in years. Maybe it time. But then when my friend comes from Iowa I'll be in the bars almost every night! Yea, well I'll have to think about going out for New Year's a little while longer.

Dieter and I have been going swimming in the pool around 5:30PM. We didn't go today, but the gay guy in the apartment above us went. I think he expected me and Dieter to come to the pool also. He's met Dieter but not me. I think he's eager to meet me. And I'm eager to meet him although he doesn't interest me sexually at all. But, I've decided to become more sociable  and make some new friends. Might as well start with a neighbor.

I read a journal from Howard's Notebook (Howard is a real hunk) today. He's had his journal going since 1984! I take my hat off to him. But, I do hope that my journal isn't as boring as his! Hell, it probable is! Maybe even more so? Oh, well, I don't force anyone to read it. Anyway, he has a web cam on his website and I really enjoyed seeing him sitting there shirtless at the computer (don't know if he was completely nude as I could see all of him). I kind of got off watching him sitting at his computer. Howard certainly knows more about computers that I ever will! Damn, I hate when someone is better than me at something. I'm so damn competitive! Too competitive!

Dieter just called out my name. He always says H-o-w-e-l-l  R-o-l-a-n-d when he going to bed in a strange tone. It's his way of asking me to come to bed. Yea, well, it is my bed time. I just finished a big piece of the Lane Cake that my sister sent me for Christmas. It is still delicious, but I got to toss it away. I'm gaining too much weight! There must be 2,000 calories in each slice! Yes, I've got to get rid of it. To bad Buddy Mo lives so far away! I'm sure he would help me finish it.

Saturday 10:04PM 12/27/03

I didn't go to the gym today. It's a waste of time to go on Saturday, as Saturday is the Sabbath for the Jews and this community is at least 80% Jewish (hoping to some day turn that into a gay percentage) and they mostly stay at home. At least not many go to the gym so I've decided it is a waste of time. That doesn't mean I didn't get to sneak a look at an old man's dick! Dieter drug me to the Swap Shop on 441 in Margate (just west of us). While he was buying a belt I scoped out the rest room. I had the good luck of walking in right behind an old Latino man. Even though we were the only two in the bathroom and there are five urinals, I took the one right next to him. The dark skin old man tried to hid his dick but the damn thing was just to long. I got several views of it and all that foreskin overhanging his dick head while he was taking a piss. He knew I was staring at his dick and muttered something in Spanish under his breath, but I didn't let that stop me for getting a very close look at his big uncut dick as it was almost frantically stuffing it back in his fly. The old man gave me a dirty look as he was leaving the toilet and said what I figured was a curse word as he walked out the door. Hell, it was fun.

I would like to go to the gym tomorrow but I can't seem to eager to go to the gym or Dieter will get concerned. So, I have to play it slow and easy in spite of my urge to go there. God, I still get a thrill out of seeing those old men naked. I especially like that old hairy man with the bad leg. He's not as good looking as the short, very hairy old man I saw over a week ago  with his swimming trunks on in the sauna. But the old guy with the bad leg turns me on more. I guess it's because isn't as goodlooking and it so natural, straight acting that attracts me to him. I kept fantasizing about what he would do if we were alone somewhere and I made a pass at him. I really don't know what his reaction would be, but I think even if he said no, he would be nice about it.

I really have an urge to go to the bathhouse on Oakland Park, but am afraid of seeing too many people that I know. It was ok to go there when I first came to town and no one knew me, but now with my pictures all over the web, I'm sure over half the old men in town know what I look like. So, I can't go there.

I haven't given up on finding an old buddy to play around with here in Wynmoor. I know there are some of these married old men that must like to play around. It's just a matter of ferreting them out. Hey, sooner or later, I will. I would try to get together with the A... the 90 year old man upstairs but I don't think he wants to play around. Sure he like to see my dick but I don't see him doing anything with me or lettering me do anything to him. But, like I said sooner or later . . .

The feed back I have been getting about the new look of the website had all been positive so far. But I am sure there are those that like what it looked like before. As I always say, you can't please everyone.

Still working on the story "Snowball". It's a slow go but I will get it finished.

Dieter and I have been thinking about going on a cruise. Neither of us has ever been on one. Hell it would be nice to get together with a lot of guys that like old men and all do a cruise together. Oh, well it's just an idea. But hell it would be fun! I wouldn't want it to be a thing like the jack rabbits or those other get togethers where it's all fuck and sucking one another. I'm thinking more in terms of just a cruise where a lot of friends (people who enjoy the website) band together and go on the same ship without any organization of any kind. Na! Will never happen.  Enough fantasizing for one day! Dieter just called out my name.  Later!

Sunday 12/28/03 8:56PM

Well we will not be writing 2003 for much longer. The New Year is almost upon us! I'm ready for it. Hopefully it'll be a good year for the website. 03 started out great with my first video and got better and better until yahoo wiped out my website. Then just as I was recovering from that blow Paypal froze my account blocking all transaction because of the mature content of the website. That blow I haven't gotten over! It was so simple to subscribe to the website that people did it in droves, now that they have to write out a check  or send a money order, well it's just too much trouble for lots of people. Have been trying Western Union but it's complicated to use and people haven't caught on to it.

But now that I'm doing real estate, I don't have to depend on the website entirely for my income. So, it has taken some of the pressure off me. Still, it's been  a very disappointing year, especially when you consider that the actions yahoo and Paypal took was because of people who are trying to closed my website down. They reported the gay adult content of my website to both Yahoo and to Paypal.

Got a message from the webmaster of Silvermen.org. He told me that a website in Korea was giving out enjoyoldpics passwords to it's members. It was damn nice of him to tell me. Well, I deleted the passwords they were using and decided to check on other users and eliminated the passwords of about 12 subscribers that I suspect have given out their passwords to one or more friends. I made a few mistakes but generally all the ones whose subscriptions I cancelled are guilty of either letting others use there passwords or excessive downloads. (Ken, please feel free to visit the website anytime you wish and as many times as you like) And to you guys out there exchanging passwords to the website . . . I'm watching and I'll delete your passwords in a blink of an eye and never look back. And will not care how much you say your are sorry! You'll be history as far as getting into the website. I guess people don't realize that I knew each time they use their passwords, how many files they download and so on and so forth.

Damn, where are so many nice people out there but there are also some real shit heads!

So what will the year 04 bring? More attacks on the website? Who knows. I'm optimistic that it will be a very good year. I'm going to get out more and make some new friends. I wish I wasn't as sensitive as I am then it would be more easy to make friends. I always say I don't care what people think about me, but that's not true. I care very much what people think and say about me. But, damn it, I don't let it stand in my way of doing what I feel is right. I think making my videos is right. I think having the kind of website that I have is right. I don't always like how I have to go about doing some of the things I do (not telling Dieter). And yes I have tons of guilt about some of the things I do. But I don't let it stop me even though I pay the price every day. But, I can still look myself in the mirror and I'm still proud of what I see.

Hey, I tossed out the Lane cake today. I didn't throw it away because it had turned bad, on the contrary it was even better than when I first got it (A Lane cakes needs a couple of weeks to age). I tossed the sucker out because I was eating too much of it and gaining too much weight. God, can't ever tell my sister I tossed it out! She would cry!

Now that's not saying that I'm going to go on a diet and try to lose weight. I actually kind of like myself being a little chunky. Now if something happened to Dieter and I met Mr. Wonderful but he said I was a little over weight, then I would lose weight. But left on my own, no way. I like a few extra pounds.

I look forward to going to the gym tomorrow. I need to see a naked old man. Just wish I could reach out and touch one or two of them. But will have to make do with looking at them naked.

Monday 12/29/03 8:49

Hot damn! Today was a bonanza! I got to see L... the old skinny old man, almost feable, (late 80's) and his nice dick. Then the chubby old man with the mustache that comes in wearing his bathing suit before his swim and naked after his swim was in the sauna. He has both a nice dick and nice balls I enjoy very much looking at his dick. He was in a talkative mood and it was fun. While he was there the old man that collects for a children's charity outside the local Jewish deli came in. Damn he's got a set of bull balls on him and a thick dick too. But his body is nothing to look at. His legs are so thick and covered with unsightly veins, that if it wasn't for his hug balls I wouldn't look at him twice.

Then there was a slightly chubby old man with a mustache. His dick wasn't too thick or long and his balls was only average but it was nice to see him naked. He looked in his 80's. And then as I was leaving a gorgeous old man (around 65) walked into the locker room naked. He was a little on the heavy side but wasn't flabby. He had a nice face with a big nose. I couldn't tell if his dick was cut or uncut as the foreskin was draped over about a third of the head of his dick. Sometimes people with cut dicks have enough foreskin to cover a little of the head of their dicks. To bad I was getting dressed because he went into the sauna. When I walked pass the glass door of the sauna I glanced in. He stared back at me. Damn, I hope I see him there again. But he might just be visiting some friends or relatives here in Wynmoor. There are lots and lots of guests here during the holidays. I hope he lives here and I get to see him again. So all in all I got to see some wonderful naked old men today.

Well I'm still culling out those that have been sharing their passwords. Haven't gotten to YOU yet? Don't worry I will. Made some people very mad. And of course everyone says, oh no I never . . . Yea, right. This is the pattern. Someone will subscribe to the website. He'll enjoy it for a couple of months and the tell his friend. "I've found this great old man website" and then give them the passwords. But the worst one are those that post the passwords on special little websites. Anyway, I working through the logs from the website. It's time consuming but fun to catch these people.

I think my problems with the website is going to carry over into 04. Yahoo is after me, again. Really don't know why as sending message to yahoo groups in which you are a member is allow and isn't considered spam. But who knows what they will come up against me. But I'm sure that all I have to do is open another account and join all the clubs and I'm right back in business.

Gee, it's depressing to read over the last to paragraphs. What happen to honesty? Shit, I don't even want to think about.

Got to do another shoot next month. I wasn't pleased with "Pete's Orgy." Will never shoot another scene with so many people. Didn't work out like I had hoped. But I learned from that video. I don't think it's a terrible video, I just don't think it's up to the others. That's my opinion. Others might love it. Any way, I do want to do a really good video the next time so I'm going to take my time making it.

Ok, I'm depressed and all written out. Time to watch a little TV and relax a little before going to bed.

Tuesday 9:53PM 12/30/03

Hell, I wasn't going even to write anything tonight. Wasn't in the mood. Disgusted with things. God, I think I'm a whinier! I'm all ways complaining. Worked on the logs for the passwords today and then when I deleted passwords and the subscribers e-mailed me and I learned who they were, made me very depressed. Hell, such is life. I've got to remember that there are lots of good people out there. And I'm writing in the journal to night because of one of those wonderful people. Just got a lovely e-mail from a young guy that told me how much my journal has helped him to come out of the closet. His e-mail cheered me up.

I didn't go to the gym today was to busy going over the passwords logs looking for the profiles of usage that suggest password sharing. When I get involved in a project, I throw my all into it. So skipped the gym. Will go tomorrow and hopefully see some new naked out men.

Got a nice e-mail for the handsome, nice older man who wants to become an investor in my video efforts. I said thanks but no thanks mostly because I am so damn independent that I don't think I can handle someone else making decisions about my videos. Like I said once before, I had a partner for the first video "Older Men-Take One". He furnished the camera and did the filming. But didn't like how I trusted people and chickened out and was very nasty about it. So, I had to finished the video alone. He was suppose to have been a professional editor???? I'll never know as I didn't see any of his work. (he's the Do Dad and I'm sure you've hear of him) So I was left to edit the video, but to do that I had to buy an expensive computer and also a camera to finish the shooting of the video. It was a mess, but in the end I did produce a great video. But I learned my lesson  . . . not to depend on anyone but myself. I'm not suggesting that the nice older man that wants to invest in my video efforts would be like than. On the contrary, he is a gentleman and I am sure would always live up to his commitments. Still, I just can't bring myself to work with anyone on making the videos. But, it was damn nice of him to offer.

There's another old man that lives on the third floor about us that Dieter says has been very friendly to him. Actually, when I was taking groceries out of the SUV I saw the old man getting in his car and I thought he was looking at me intensely. From what I could see of him he's slim and in good shape for 80yo. And he had a full head of gray and was good looking. I am going to keep an eye out for him. Hey, the old man (he married but his wife isn't well) has got to know that Dieter is living with another man. And I bet you dollars to donuts that rumors are wide spread in our building that Dieter and I are gay. And the old man surely has heard them. So? Well, I'll keep a sharp out eye for the old man. And go out of may to meet him.

Dieter and I have been going swimming around five PM some evenings when the pool is empty. I'm hoping that other men will start joining us and we'll have a nice chatty swim like the old ladies do in the mornings. Anyway, while we were swimming I watched the forth floor apartment when A... lives. He's the one that watched me jacking off. Well, I spotted him. He was watching Dieter and me as we were swimming. I would love to get together with him. I bet he has a big dick because he's got a huge nose, and I've always heard a big nose means you have a big dick. Well, I want to see if it true with A....

So, even thought I didn't actually see any old men naked today, I did get a little tease of future things that might develop. You just have to be patience about connecting with people  interested in playing around in a straight place like Wynmoor (hopefully more gays will move in here next year) and let them come to you once they have heard the rumors and seen what you look like. That's how I am working it. I've got plenty of time. They will come to me sooner or later if I am watchful and take action at the right time. At least I hope so . . .